It’s been something like 5 years since I’ve written to this thing, and may prove to be 5 more still before I write to it again. Not that it matters, being that it’s a purposefully darkweb blog that no one’s read from in a very long time, as my logs confirm. Life continues to ebb… Continue reading Returning home
Author: courtnee
Life in the Fast Lane: A Thanksgiving invitation for my experimental/sociopolitically-motivated friends:
Howdy facebook. How’s it hanging. As y’all surely know, it’s Thanksgiving in the U. S. this week. And if you’ve been around here much in the past, you might remember a little bit about what I think of Thanksgiving. :poop emoji: I’m taking a bit of a different track this year, and I wanna share… Continue reading Life in the Fast Lane: A Thanksgiving invitation for my experimental/sociopolitically-motivated friends:
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In contrast to this Black Sparrow clusterfuck, I’m periodically thinking of someone named Heather Dwyer. Heather is the person from 4 culture who contacted me a month after a grant application due date to let me know that my application was almost complete; I just needed to upload work samples, and if I could do… Continue reading Untitled
The Black Sparrow is dead
So things changed for me yesterday. I was tagged by a stranger in a post indicating that the birthday party I had been hired to play at Black Sparrow was moved to another day/band. This was in addition to no longer having access to the place I’d anticipated staying for multiple weeks in the area,… Continue reading The Black Sparrow is dead
Borderline
In the beginning, the plan for Year of the Kat was to get on medication. That, thus far, has not come to pass, mainly due to the runaround and wait times in seeing a psychiatrist meaning I had one single appointment before I left on tour (in which the psyche questioned whether I needed medication… Continue reading Borderline
2017 Arc Fellowship Grant
Submitting this application nearly didn’t happen. If not for Heather at 4culture encouraging me to submit work samples a month after the official deadline had passed, I’d have not been in the running for this $12,000 grant. Here’s what I’d forgotten I wrote, and the work samples I included. Inspiration: I am compelled to create… Continue reading 2017 Arc Fellowship Grant
OptimumDesk.exe / ODService CPU hog won’t uninstall
My last 24 hours: 1) Did the steps in https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qyYB07SUPcI&feature=youtu.be to confirm the title executables were the reason dad’s win10 machine blared at 99% cpu usage unless in safe mode — did all those steps with every instance of eventvwr or task manager taking upwards of 4 minutes to load. 2) Found this, which confirmed… Continue reading OptimumDesk.exe / ODService CPU hog won’t uninstall
Sunday Checkin: Year 3 – from Seattle to SMF
I’ve been on the road for two weeks now, mostly visiting friends and family with a day or two of driving time in between. I’m updating from Sacramento on the day of whitewashed gaslight homage that is thanksgiving, better known as day of mourning, in which we not only continue to ambiently ignore but also… Continue reading Sunday Checkin: Year 3 – from Seattle to SMF
On minimization as patriarchal reflex
To follow up on that post about at least starting to learn about something that is painfully obvious to women: patriarchy inflicts the stress of constant bodily vigilance at best and acute terror at worse: All the comments were amazing. So many stood out, like those that reported on strategies for increasing safety in taxis.… Continue reading On minimization as patriarchal reflex
#metoo
A meditation on what comes after #metoo After a long few days I finally crashed like a brick last night. I am so tired. I am so tired of the groupthink onus being on victims of abuse, to rehash, to out themselves, to display their pain, to direct. What can you do? Figure out why… Continue reading #metoo