i was so afraid of going to the dentist, i was virtually in tears at work before i had to leave and needed to call my daddy for comfort. i dont care who thinks im a pussy. i really REALLY dislike people fucking with my body. doctors or dentists or whatever, the thought of being examined makes me feel physically ill. this particular procedure really had me upset.
pain is eminent. right now im still numb, but that wont last much longer.. unfortunately. i put all four of my wisdom teeth to sleep today. oh man it was traumatizing. not nearly as bad as i had feared, but it was still pretty fucked up shit. all four of them were impacted, and had to be broken into pieces, parts of my jaw had to be dug into, i had to be awake.. had to listen to each layer as they pulled the teeth out. went quicker than i expected and the painful part was the novicane shots, as per usual.. but god. big chunks of bone-like calcium ripped out of my face, when they were embedded under my jaw in the first place. ugh.
blood really fucking stinks, you know that? when people talk of the scent of ‘death’ they talk about the fetor of blood.. and you dont need to be dead to reak of it. my mouth was gushing with it for over 2 hours after i got my teeth extracted, and now it just has the putrid odor of dead meat, and there isnt jack shit i can do about it besides smell it every time i breathe. every time i walk by a mirror i have more of it caked on my lips. its the most disgusting thing ive had to endure for a very long time. no one bothers to mention these things before you go get your teeth pulled. they do of course mention the needles jabbed into the roof of your mouth and so on, though. how lovely of them.
so, after over 8 months of putting it off i finally got them done.. and after 2 weeks of being sick with one thing or another im going to take even more time off work and be in agony all weekend. i would take pictures of my bloody caverns, but im not as much of a sick fuck as i used to be and really dont feel like snapping pictures. im sure you can all imagine. 🙂 ive gotta go in again next week to get the stitches removed from my two lower sockets, and get a checkup and run through the rest of the dental work i wanna have done. till then im gonna smell like rotten steak and feel like shit.. just a little bit longer. right now im just sitting here waiting for it to start hurting.