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I treasure the affect I am allowed on those who have appreciated my music over the years. I am honored by the affirming words gifted to me by the authors on this page, and I hope to in turn honor them by keeping those words alive here.

I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to be these things for you all, and I am still completely amazed by the supportive, favorable nature of all the correspondence I’ve received based upon my music. I am humbled, and I am still here, if you want to talk with me.

Your Words….

May 5 2013

I love your shadowy music Courtnee


date: Tue, Apr 12, 2011 – 4:46pm

Listening to you is great, as I can feel the soul tearing apart behind the words. Whether it be in sorrow, pain or joy… it always has that raw touch, and it is hugely impacting


February 1, 2012 at 7:21 pm

Long time ago i opened my ears to this wonderful sound. It’s melodies and vocals helped me through adolescence and depression, gave me strength in a way as well, this music will forever be etched in my own growth. Thank you and i plan to order the disk if more are available.

Joshua Meyer

date: Tue, 5 Apr 2011 2:58pm
subject: received the Album – Thanks!

Hello Courtnee,

I received your album last week, and I want to say — Wow!  It is absolutely
wonderful.  I had vacillated about buying it, since I had only heard a few
of your songs and it was $32, but I am glad I purchased it!  (It’s actually
the most expensive album I’ve ever bought.)  I’m really enjoying it.

Every song on that album is fantastic.  I just wanted to send an email to
say thanks!


Aemi says:
October 27, 2010 at 11:44 pm

I fell madly in love with your music back when was a free site. A got some of my friends into it and you had quite a following out here until the site went pay only and we lost access lol
Now i need to scrap together some money to get your music back out here again :)

Date: Thu, 27 May 2010 13:42:01 -0400
Subject: songs of Leaving

A very, very well-wrought CD. I already had a few of your songs (from Point
of Origin, mostly, but some odds and ends as well), and it was nice to hear
them here and there, mixed in with the newer ones. Very evocative
soundscapes, as always, and a powerful voice resonating through them. Very
fine work indeed.

So thank you for the prompt expedition, and I’ll definitely be keeping an
eye on your future endeavours.

Take care,


Date: Sun, 4 Apr 2010 23:32:53 -0700
Subject: Thank you

for countless hours of
what i’ve felt
with what
you gave me

from way back

you have no idea

much love

date: Fri, Apr 3, 2009 at 5:44 PM
subject: Songs of Leaving feedback

Greetings Courtnee, I’ve been enjoying the CD a lot, especially while driving.

Equilibrium is my favorite by far. It’s hypnotic and addictive, a perfect balance of awed discovery, melancholy, and peaceful acceptance.

Improv Vocals would be the opening title music to the never-to-be-filmed movie of my epic never-to-be-written novel (it’s about nuns). A red mermaid trailing flames and sparks swims lazily through blackness, while the credit names appear as glowing embers burning though the dark surface.

Infinite Reality seems to tell of an adventurer starting out on a great journey in earnest enthusiasm, quickly confronted and defeated by the reality of the boundless void, but rescued from despair by a merciful and eternal spirit of the infinite who escorts the traveler through its vastness.

I Put a Spell on You reminds me of the movie Let the Right One In. Is There Anybody Out There and Sepulture are also favorites.

While learning Turkish, we learned of “back vowels” (ah, oh, oo) and “front vowels” (eh, ee). This is how I think of your two distinct voices. Random Crap and Sepulture would be the “back” voice, and Last Breath the “front” voice….I prefer the back voice, for what that’s worth.

It’s a box of jewels. We are all blessed.

Date: Fri, 24 Nov 2006 01:44:16 +0100
From: bram ..

you know the Nothing the Stillness that is the Source
empty yourself
Let Spirit guide You through you
ask Spirit for help when you need it

you are not alone

Date: Wed, 29 Mar 2006 21:31:45 -0500 (EST)
From: bk*****
Subject: Thank you

Beautiful music, i’m particularly fond of convergence, threshold and
Sepulture. It’s digs deep enough into me so that even when friends are
abouts and wanna hear some vacuos, cheery, enjoy the times carpe-diem
shit, i insit on adding gravitas to this sorry-go-round of an existence…

I like you’re other stuff too, you’ve got extraordinary range, and I hope
that people are appreciating it. Are you ever in the northeast?

Subject: Keep going
Jan 6, 2007 2:00 AM

I e-mailed you years and years ago(at least 6?) asking to buy cd’s from you
but you told me not to. just download it for free. i originally heard you on or maybe somebody told me about you. not sure. either way i’ve had
many different computers and residents since then but one thing stays the
same. i always find and download your music to my computers. especially
threshold. i don’t have anything to say really other then i think you’re
really talented and i don’t know how you haven’t gone further other then
your music isn’t mainstream. i know i would like to hear that what i do is
appriaciated so i am telling you. keep it up and continue to make more.


Date: Mon, 14 Nov 2005
From: Brian Ritson
Subject: A little fan art

Good day Courtnee. I just wanted to say I am a HUGE fan of yours, been so since the days. So I was looking over your photos over at Devient art and one piece inspired me (I to am an artist of sorts). No Tomorrow was a wonderful composition and very moody. So I took it upon myself to illustrate it and this is the result. I really hope you like it. :)

Thanks for all your beautiful art, I just wanted to give a little back. B-

Brians Artwork can be viewed here

Date: Sun, 26 Jun 2005
From: Raider of the lost BBS
Subject: New fan

I was wandering through the net and came across your work. I loved
every single song I downloaded (I think there were 10 of them) but
they all seem to be dated from a while ago so I hope this address is
still good.

It’s a shame they aren’t in mp3 anymore. Anyhoo, I just wanted to say
that I loved them, thanks for sharing!

Date: Wed, 18 May 2005
From: gruha
Subject: Greetings from Denmark

Hej Courtnee!!

I discovered you through you images on, which are really
great! I also checked out your website, and your music. I really like it!

Best to you

Date: Mon, 2 May 2005
From: Corina Hernandez
Subject: amagad!

omg i just found ur site…i’ve been looking for a new site of yours
since turned bitch…i can now die happy..thank you

Date: Mon, 04 Apr 2005
From: Kimberly Seymour
Subject: lyrics

I love your music. I would really like to see the lyrics to your songs. Do
you post the lyrics anywhere? Also, please add me to the mailing list.


Date: Tue, 29 Mar 2005
From: Dan Lotarewicz


i was just browsin your site and listenin to some more of excellent
stuff, watchin the live vids too, lookin hot ^_~ anyway, i just
wanted to say that there hasnt really been any updates, that i saw
anyway lately.i kinda wanted to know why, if you hadnt had enough
time or god forbid stopped creating music O_o lovin the music, keep
it up, this fan in england LOVES what your doin ^_^

later dayz

From: kafkaradio
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Mon, 26 Mar 2001

Your music is inspiring, enlightening….

I listen to your tracks at work (T-1 lines are so wonderful), and it actually
makes the work day bearable. You lift the spirit, as if from beneath the

thank you….

From: mrspaceman
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Fri, 23 Mar 2001

Hello. I’ve been listening to a few of your songs (on repeat, something I NEVER
do), and I just wanted to say you have exactly what I needed. I’m writing a
book, and the colour (I’m sure you know what I’m talking about) of a few of the
scenes was off. They were really giving me some shit.

I listened to the “mystere” remix first, and I just had it. Your songs have the
quality I wanted for my book, the “last gasp into the abyss” sort of feeling. I
sat here and wrote for 3 hours (writer’s cramp. yay!), and it’s coming out so
beautifully. If this book were a movie, I’d want you to do a soundtrack.
Thanks for your time. and for the music.
J. Laine

From: Jason White
Subject: Your music
Date: Tue, 20 Mar 2001

Just wanted to say I was impressed by your music. Your website is pretty slick too… keep it up :o)

From: evil242off
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Tue, 20 Mar 2001

beautiful stuff…dont ever stop

From: phatassbeat
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Mon, 19 Mar 2001

I like your stuff, mostly the abstract tracks. catchy name to, yada yada yada
I’m sure you’ve heard it all before. lata
Out of Body

From: bmxrave
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Sun, 18 Mar 2001

hi there!

thanx for some very cool music!!

cu around!


From: canadian_nationalist
Subject: love your music. i have a question!
Date: 16 Mar 2001

Hello! My name’s Adam. I am 16/m/Canada. Ontario to be exact.
I love your music! A newly found friend sent it to me. Its great! I wanted to
get more so I went to your site and it sent me to if I wanted to hear
some music. I wanted to download it, I hear that you get paid for downloads,
but when i clicked download it came up in real player. You can’t save music in
real player and i want want to save it. I don’t believe in downloading entire
albums off the net! Even if you are getting paid for it it just doesn’t seem
right to me. I don’t have a credit card and neither do my parents so i can’t
buy anything off the net. I was wondering if i mailed you money if you could
mail me back your cd’s.
I hope you can help me out!
Hope to hear from you soon.
Keep up the good work.


From: Charles Lavoie
Subject: Interview
Date: Thu, 15 Mar 2001

We would like line up an interview with you over email for Non-Profit
Hits FM Radio. (Top 10 Sexiest Indie Band Female Vocalist) Would this be
Thanks for your time. (We would require photo’s accompanied with the


“Chuck N Dave”

From: ksallstars
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Thu, 15 Mar 2001

I love ‘threshold’. Thanks for this song. Greetings!

From: efree66
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Mon, 12 Mar 2001


I have to say I`m very impressed of your music, I have to listen again and again
after I download it!

I think you would like my “World Project Remix” at do

Could you make a new song special for me?

Kjetil (Efree)

From: deltadave
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Fri, 09 Mar 2001

Hi there……..great work just had a look and a listen to your work, very
beautiful indeed, great to see another artist from WA on …..peace love
and music………….Dave

From: edenj
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Fri, 09 Mar 2001

I absolutely loved your song “mystere”!! Awesome blend of musical textures! I
have a couple of songs i think you might like. I would appreciate any feedback
you might have.Checkout”Lodestar” and “Lose Yourself” by Space Cadet Joe. If it
is good enough, maybe you will add it to your station if you have one or add a
link to my page? Thanks alot, and keep up the
good work!! (P.S. Back the band sucks)
–Cadet Joe either case i would be glad to do the same for you.

From: les1210
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Wed, 07 Mar 2001

Greetings to Not Applicable!

Listening to Atonement! and I really like this song. The percussion work is
excellent and the synth melodics are mellow with a trippy bassline and haunting
vocals to tie it all together.

Excellent Work!

Check out my site at:


From: “Dimitrios”
Subject: Intro
Date: Mon, 5 Mar 2001


Just thought i’d send you an e. There isn’t anything I dislike about you. (that doesn’t require closer interaction :) Your music and ideals show alot of depth. There is something about you that intrigues me..

Good luck,

From: skitz
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Sat, 03 Mar 2001

listened to atonement. I liked how the piano is keeping it together, and its
interesting how it starts off simple and gets added to with more notes inbetween
the 2 chords. No actually the mysteriously interesting sound that makes this
song is those layed vocals that sound like there sung in an old open spaced
cathedral. it might of sounded better if the reverb was also attached to the
piano, and if the piano was turned down into the mix. Opinions provided by
krashkit at

From: yerface42
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Sat, 03 Mar 2001

I really like your music. It’s very calming. Your artist name is great. It is
very unique, unlike dj something or other.

-Drowsy Indifference

From: IterationX
Subject: An Fan has sent you an email!
Date: Fri, 23 Feb 2001

You have a beautiful voice, and tremendous sense of musical style. I like your
tracks very much. If you have a few moments I’d appreciate it if you would
listen to my tracks and give me your opinion. I use a good deal of stereo
effect so they play much better in HiFi-
If you can’t(and/or won’t) I understand, as I get many requests to listen to
other artists’ tracks, I’m sure you get tons more. Thank you for your time, and
thank you for the great songs.

From: “tHEbLACKkAT”
Subject: your music
Date: Sun, 4 Feb 2001

Not Applicable,

first off id like to say your music has been an outlet for alot of my emotions….esspecially the song atonement….during the time i was searching for some new stuff…i was happy with my life at the time…then it all went wrong…and i slipped into depression…when i found your music it helped release alot of it into the winds…i didnt really vocalize my depression..but i would sit and draw my art…write my peoms…while listening to your music..and i found a release for it all…it has helped me…and could even have possibly saved a life…thank you

a fan for life,


From: wren hoyes
Date: Fri, 2 Feb 2001

hi, I was wondering if you are planning to tour the
northcarolina area. I really think you should because
i have let alot of people listen to your music and
everyone loves it! think about it and write me back!

From: John Michael Zorko
Subject: Re: happy new year!
Date: Mon, 1 Jan 2001

Nee, you’ve graced with your music this past year, so it is with the
fondest hopes that I wish some of that grace be returned to you. Consider this
email a small token of this, hopefully only one of many you receive. If I
weren’t agnostic, I would say (and mean) “god bless,” but since I am, please
accept my …



Falling You (

From: sylon
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sun, 10 Dec 2000 17:13:05 -0800

Oh my God, oh my God!!
That’s what I’m looking for!
(Sorry for my bad English, but I’m a hungarian guy, from Eastern-Europe…)
Thanks for making this great site on – if you don’t make this, I never
heard of you and your absolutely fascinating music.

(I don’t flatter you, this is really one of the most beautiful musics I ever
heard, and until this time I never wrote any artists on!) To my great
regret, this is the only way to get your beautiful-beautiful music – my country
has no CDs from you, but it’s the same, because I have no money to buy it…
(This is a poor country…)
So, you ALONE make this great, atmospheric sound and the really amazing vocal? A
great future stands before you…
And that melodies… If I hear one of your songs (mostly Convergence and
Divergence), I get very tranquil and _strange_ feelings. I’m a graphician and a
writer in fantastic genre, so I need this feelings…
So, what can I say? Make further this great music, and don’t give up to realize
yourself. You have the talent, intensity and imagination for it, more than much
other well-known artists.
Thanks, again!

Attila Szlobodnik (Sylon) from Hungary
(from this time, a big fan of you)

From: soundsorcerer
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Fri, 08 Dec 2000

Your glorious emanations of melodious harmonies have embraced the hearts of the
music gods. Let their smiles of everlasting delight fill your mortal days with
bliss. Greetings. My name is Troy. I am a DJ at KRCL 90.9 FM in Salt Lake City,
Utah. KRCL is a community radio station that features diverse music and
information. Please visit our website, I am hosting a new
show on KRCL called DARK STAR RISING. I specialize in electronic, filmic,
ambient, illbient, and ethereal tones that drift upon the winds of radio magic.
There are many other shows on KRCL that exalt the darker side of music. EUPHORIC
DISTORTION reveals darkwave, ethereal, and trip hop music to the masses. CRANIAL
CIRCUITRY invades the souls of men with industrial body music. ABSOLUTE
ELSEWHERE embraces all that is musically insane. IN EXTREMIS proclaims the
twisted doctrine of pure noise: Grinding, scraping, crashing, and droning. SHORT
TERM EFFECTS pays homage to the forgotten shades and spectres of blackish
alternative sounds. If you are interested in sending CDs to the KRCL studio for
airplay on any of these shows, or any other KRCL show, please contact me via
email: The angels and devils of the music worlds wait
with baited breath for your reply!

From: lesmccray
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sun, 03 Dec 2000

To the band of an etheral look at life,

My name is les and I am in college in oklahoma,But I grow up most of life in
Washington State in a place called Kingston in WA.I just wanted to say I just
started to listen to your very soul claming music and that you are doing a great
job and please keep producing great music, I think that you are one of the last
great ones left that puts life in a beatiful aspect.

From: josh
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Thu, 30 Nov 2000

First off, I love your music, it’s great. Everyone who I’ve forced to listen to
it loves it :)

Anyways, I was wondering if you ever performed live, and if there are recordings
of those (except the live songs on Altercations. And what are they ‘live” from


From: “Bakar”
Subject: Breathless and in love
Date: Sun, 26 Nov 2000

Hi Courtnee

I love music. Listening to yours makes me breathless and in love–with what,
I’m not quite sure. I’m glad to have found you. Keep making music. You’re a
great artist! ALL THE BEST.


From: jeff
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Wed, 15 Nov 2000

Greetings… I’ve been following your music for awhile now, and I believe I have
the courage to ask you about a possible collaborative effort.

I’m the leader of a loose collaborative of artists who work on instrumental art
interpretations. I have a deep love of the ambient and symbolic, and I love your
haunting vocalizations. I’m currently recording a new album with my group, The
Seraphi, and I was wondering if you’d care to provide your beautiful vocals to a
few tracks. I understand you are busy with many re-mixes with many other
artists, but I’m asking for your efforts in a songwriting collaboration.

If you’re not interested, I completely understand, as I know many of us artEEsts
are occupied with influences other than our craft. However, I’d be deeply moved
if you show an interest.

Our homepage is located at:

The Seraphi (me, myself, and I, for the most part) is a loose unification of my
many musical influences, from modal jazz to prog-rock to trip-hop. Keeping with
the angelic theme, I tend to do interpretations of religious stories, however, I
am no means a religious person. I just like to illustrate these wonderful myths
with music.

Thank you for your beautiful music,


From: scoho1
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Wed, 08 Nov 2000

Just browsing through the mp3 charts and saw your site. Listened to the song
aura. Like the melodies and the web page looks good too. Beautiful woman on
cover too. If you get a chance check me out at

Keep it up,


From: “mark silverio”
Subject: thank you!!
Date: Tue, 07 Nov 2000

just wanted to say, that you music is very beautiful, and hope to hear more.
Im a drummer, and I am in the middle off making some songs myself,
and im going put on mp3 too.
well once again, thanks for you info!!

P.S. have a very, happy thanksgiving!! >:-)

From: yorbit
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sat, 04 Nov 2000

wow, your sound is great :-)
best wishes for the future.
greetinx from germany;-)

From: jlittleton
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Tue, 17 Oct 2000

gave your new song a play. keep it up.


From: campbell_greg
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Mon, 16 Oct 2000

I was just on your site at Really enjoyed your stuff!! Just wanted
to know if you might be interested in being on one of our CD compilations that
goes to over 1000 radio stations, record labels, and magazines visit Let me know if you are

Awaiting your Response,
Greg Campbell
House of Jordan Entertainment

From: webmaster
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sun, 15 Oct 2000

Dear Courtnee Papastathis
My name is ComaJazz and I’ve been a fan of yours for a year or so… I’m looking
for new songs to play on my radio channel and I would absolutely love to feature
your music. So far I’ve only been playing my own songs and tracks I’ve remixed
for other people, but I would really like to air more music that I can listen to
for hours, and music I would like to introduce people to. And you are among the
most interesting artist around, so is it ok if I play your songs?

From: auralshelter
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sun, 15 Oct 2000

Hi –

Looking in on your stuff, and it sure feels nice.

We are the afterburn, and we’d love you to come have a listen.

peace & thanks –

the afterburn (Alex & Antonio)

From: forlorn99
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sat, 14 Oct 2000

Hey, guess what? One of your songs is featured on The TVC Top Twenty. Why is
this cool? Well, it’s because somebody out there thought that your music was
worth voting for in a poll that I’ve run over the last two weeks on the latest
version of The Violet Collection. Now isn’t that wild? Anyway, you can check
out where you stand in the chart by visiting

Congratulations, you rock!

The Violet Collection

From: thewhyim55
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sat, 14 Oct 2000

your one hell of a musician, your music is so, very moveing!
when i listin to it i have erection of the papillae (goose bumps) keep up
makeing your music. im a midi durmmer and sampler, i play the YAMAHA DTX11
DRUMS, and YAMAHA A4000 sampler. and i try to find what the best soft ware to
get for my conputer so i can recorded, not sure what to do yet, in 2 weeks im
going in a studio and do some stuff with my brother and friends, and talk to the
engineer. cool so talk to you later

From: dogevol
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Fri, 13 Oct 2000

I have just been Looking at your page – Some Good Stuff There!
Keep it up:) (BTW I think you should be getting more then you are – Try
getting on a few more stations!)

From: gonkenmusic
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Thu, 12 Oct 2000

Hi, I just stumbled upon your site. You have some really great music here. If
you want, check out my page at:
I hope to hear a response (positive or negative)

From: davidk
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Thu, 12 Oct 2000

I am happy to inform you that your tune “Mystere” (live) is being featured at
the tribute station “Brian Eno-esque? You bet!” We value artist feedback at
this station so feel very free to write me at any time. Sincerely, Dancin Dave.

From: knight5 (my ex)
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Mon, 09 Oct 2000

Geeez, I know talent when i kiss it. I love how well you are doing, This is
cool shit. I can’t wait to see what you do in the future.

All my best wishes,

From: laforestmarc
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Thu, 05 Oct 2000

Your music is very interesting!
I will link you on my web page
if you want:

From: infant66
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Wed, 04 Oct 2000


I love you. Solace, Live makes me feel so eclectic and electric, strange
feelings rolling through my blood. You give me goosebumps. I want to hear your
voice at least twice a day..

infant productions

From: eisha_music
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Wed, 27 Sep 2000

Hi There!

I found your station on and finds it very nice.

Would you please listen to my songs and consider adding one of them to your
station(s) I think there is one or two you might like. If you wan´t me to add
one of your songs to one of my stations just let me know.

If you wan´t me to add your link to my artist page, just tell me and if you like
you can add my link.

Take care and keep up the good work!

/Richard (EISHA)

From: wcodysain
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Mon, 25 Sep 2000

Hello, I’ve been going through some old music in listening to a
second or two of each song and moving on. But then, I came across Divergence.
I started listening to it and it would simply not let go! I must say that it is

Also, I love the train tunnel photo. I think it should be the cover of an
upcoming album.

Thank you for your music,
~Cody Sain

From: Zero2aHero
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Fri, 22 Sep 2000

Hi, I have been listening to some of your songs. You have such a beautiful
voice, it’s very soothing. I think you might be onto a new sort of style,
something that I have always wanted to create. You really remind me of my
favorite band Dredg (, that was not a plug, I really really like
how you use so much reverb on your voice. Got any advice for someone like me
who is just starting out on I would really love to hear from you, you
have such an amazing voice.

(that is a plug)

From: erikcronin
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Thu, 21 Sep 2000

hey… very inspirational tracks on… keep it up!


From: fredrikw
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Wed, 20 Sep 2000

Wonderful music! I already have your first CD, and I will promptly get the
second one.

thank you for your beautiful music


From: digitaliris
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Mon, 18 Sep 2000


erm…well i found your page for the first time yesterday i downloaded ‘mystere’
and got kind of inspired, so i remixed it. I was gonna upload it to my
account but i decided this was rude (as i had not asked your permission for the
sounds). I have put it on my account if you wouldn’t mind
having a listen.

it’s in the ‘miscellaneous stuff’ folder. Hope you like it, it’s sort of ambient
hip hop i guess, with your vocals cut up and pitched around to make most of the

Props to you from the UK for your great voice and judging from this picture over
here < -remarkbly long fingers... ;) cheers dan ---------------------
From: sebt
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sun, 17 Sep 2000

I really liked your music, this is the style i prefer and your songs are really
interesting ….

From: “Jason Walter”
Subject: Annoying fan mail…
Date: Mon, 18 Sep 2000

Hi, I was just linked to your page from ‘’ (wandering aimlessly across the net) and I just want to say that I really enjoyed your songs on While I do listen to some mellower stuff, I generally find myself drawn to the heavier end of the electronic music scene. (Front Line Assembly or :Wumpscut: for instance). I wonder if you would be interested in my doing a remix of your song Mystere? I am not interested in ripping off anyone’s sounds or vocals or anything like that, and I’ve done a number of remixes for other (small) bands such as ‘TheSarcasm’, ‘Kilodelta’ and ‘Coded’.
I really enjoyed the vibe of Mystere, and have some interesting ideas for a semi-club oriented version of this track of yours. If you are interested, you can email me back at, or if you would like to check out some of my original ‘compositions’ hit (I’m a 1984 freak)
At any rate, great tunes, and keep up the good work, hope to hear from you soon.

Jay. (A.K.A. Thoughtcrime)

From: miQ
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Sun, 17 Sep 2000


wow.. i REALLY like your work.
i just thought i’d drop you a line and let ya know that.

… i was thinking of doing a remix of one of your tunes. (not sure which one, i
haven’t listened to them all yet.. .) i have many projects on the go, but i
would probably do it under my “noCore” guise – ( – check out the
track ‘shutDown’.
… i’ve been experimenting with a lot of abstract layering techniques and the
combination of your voice and piano would sound astounding … (not that it
doesen’t already.. but i love doing remixes!)

anyways.. just thought i’d reaffirm in your mind that you are extremly talented
and beautiful!

keep up the great work!
..and keep in touch if you have the time ;)


From: Tim Eilers
Subject: Beautiful music
Date: Fri, 15 Sep 2000

You have a lovely voice! I wish you much success. 8)

From: tomara
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Fri, 15 Sep 2000


On your #1 in Minimal….

Tom…. :-)

From: michael
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Wed, 13 Sep 2000

Hi there ! … nice music at this page … :o) well … I shall link you at our

in case, you have more information about your project … feel free to send me
somthing ! …

warmest regards from the other side of the world …

From: DigitalEnvy
Subject: A fan has sent you an email
Date: Mon, 11 Sep 2000

lividly intense sembionic dismeant temptation crippling angel’s divine vision.

Your music is gorgeous.
Its so invoking.


(if you like, listen to me)

From: Michael Grenley
Subject: New CD
Date: Thu, 24 Aug 2000

I can’t wait to hear your new CD. I just hopped over to and
ordered it. Have you considered making posters? I love all of the
pictures of you I have seen. I really like the one of you in the
tunnel. You know, the one where you kind of look like a ghost? That is
such a cool picture, I would love to hang it on my wall. I also really
like the picture of you on You look really good in those
glasses. You are truly gifted. You have beauty and talent. From
listening to your music, I can discern that you are very smart as
well. Man what a lethal combination, brains, beauty, and skill.
Geeze! You have a very lucky boyfriend indeed. Please keep the music
coming. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to contribute
to your efforts. I love your music and your art.

Fan fully yours,
Michael Grenley

From: Rocky Devries
Subject: RE:
Date: Wed, 23 Aug 2000

God, your shit is good. Just don’t be hittin’ the crack rock, and it should
keep itself pretty real.


From: “Zoie”
Subject: saw your page
Date: Mon, 7 Aug 2000

Not Applicable-

I can’t write much at the moment, but I came accross your page and wanted to say that I was interested in your work. There’s a site that I found on the net…that I thought you might like, it helps people broadcast thier music… you should check it out . It’s were I spend most of my listening time on the net so if you get a broadcast up let me know…it would be great to hear you on there. Well gotta go…but please write back! =o)


From: “Chris Mondragon”
Subject: U R Amazing…
Date: Sun, 6 Aug 2000

I just wanted to take a minute to tell you how much I love your music. I was very drawn to your style and the beautiful mysterious sound that you have. VERY original, I personally have never heard anything even close to it. I have many ideas for songs that I will begin production on this fall, and your voice would be perfect for some of these ideas. Hopefully you would be up for compilating with me on some of my songs that I will release, I could really use a voice that is as beautiful and harmonious as yours. Excellent job with your song writing so far, I was very impressed. I hope that we will be able to speak more. =) Thank you for your time…

Sincerely, Chris

From: “Vincent Rendoni”
Subject: um, hi
Date: Sun, 06 Aug 2000

Hello, I take it your name is Courtney.

You obviously dont know me, heh, which explains by blah subject line.
My name is Vincent, I am from Tacoma in Washington. Its nice to see
more people from our state be so into music. Heh, the next Sunny Day
Real Estate or Mudhoney could be around anywhere.
Despite my rambling, I must compliment you on your songs. I must say
you are very good at what you do. I am sure you get a million other
mails, so I will keep this short not to annoy you.
Well, later then.


The Days Of Our Nights –

From: INyoureyeguy
Subject: viewer email
Date: Fri, 4 Aug 2000

You are so great, i really dig your shit man, its so great, well i just wanted
to say that you are pretty fucking great. i love your music so very much, it just makes me feel….i don’t know,
which is why i love it so, i was curious if you have a screen name for aim or
aol or icq so we could talk sometime, catch ya later, Ross.

From: zoeflake
Subject: viewer email
Date: Mon, 24 Jul 2000

I had a hard time describing your music
on my station simply because it is so
beautiful…words cannot do you justice.
I mostly just wanted to thank you for making music. My station is ZOEFLAKE
RADIO. Feel free to check it out and I would appreciate any suggestions you
might have. Thanks.

Ottawa, ON, Canada

From: comajazz
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 18 Jul 2000

Hello. You probably get a lot of fan mail. And here’s another one, so I’ll make
it short. Your music is a great inspiration to me and I would love to work
together with you somehow… If you like what I did to a song called ‘my tea’ by
the blue monkies then maybe we could do something. do you want to listen to it?
the song and the remix are here:

From: acb
Subject: viewer email
Date: Wed, 12 Jul 2000

I just checked out your new material on; I like it.
I just mentioned you on my weblog (
Keep it up…


— acb

PS. I also have some music on; the more
aethereal/ambient stuff I do goes on
Let me know if you like it. :-)

PPS. Your photos of Seattle are pretty doovy too.

From: derek
To: “Not Applicable” Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 11 Jul 2000

Hello there. I really enjoy your music on I broadcast a streaming
Electronic/Ambient/Trance mp3 stream and would like permission to add some of
your tracks to the next playlist. I will also put a link to your or
other website in my list of artists page.

Thank you


From: tom coulter
Subject: hey there!
Date: Thu, 29 Jun 2000

i wanted to thank you for not comprimising on the
remixes, and for challenging me. it felt really good
to work on something from the soul!
also, atonement really helped me through a rough patch
i was going through at the time. it gave me something
meaningful to focus on and forget my troubles for a
on the atonement remix the official counts are:
edits-about 700!
dsp power(effects)-maxed out!



p.s. sorry for being so sappy!

From: straight_x_edger
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: in awe
Date: Wed, 28 Jun 2000

I’m sure you get alot of stuff like this from people, but this is straight from the heart. Your music is so awesome. I love music that messes with my mind and emotions. Just listening to your song Divergence makes me feel alone and lost as well as many other feelings, it’s crazy. I too like creating music, and right now i am studying and toying with ideas for some more emotional abstract stuff. You can check out my page at the things i have right now aren’t really anything great they are the product of my beginnings.
well, i have to go,
patrick- electrolithic space magnet

i hope you continue to do whatever it is that you do, because it is definitely working for you.

From: themanliesbeneath
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: your music
Date: Fri, 23 Jun 2000

I have listened to a lot of music on over the past few months while working late. Yours is extraordinary, and I thank you for it. Your cd will be the first I’ve bought

From: rsquiggle
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Sun, 18 Jun 2000

Hi there. I *love* your music–I listen to it all the time now. Just thought you might like to know…

From: alva
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: gold dust woman
Date: Sat, 17 Jun 2000

ok, heard some of the stuff you put on
however, I decided to check your “not applicable” site (out of curiosity
and sheer boredom more than anything), and heard some of your old stuff,
liked that cover of stevie nicks’ tune and a couple other, and I didnt
think your voice was all that sucky at all, as a matter of fact it
sounds quite good.
I’m not sure what your reasons are for hiding behind special efx, maybe
you’re trying to convey a different mood with hushy vocals (specially on
your newer DCDish stuff) I cant quite tell. I’d assume is because you
feel more comfortable listening to y our own voice while its being
washed over by tons of reverb. the downside to that is that it keeps you
from projecting your voice basically, you dont get to muscle out your
voice or know which really are your limits.
the way efx works in recording, is that most people laid down dry tracks
and apply efx later on at mixdown, it never goes wet straight to tape,
not quite sur eif yo u know anything about recording technique, but
that’s how it usually works.

I’d say, just let it out and stop hiding or being conscious about how it
goes out.
just commenting on something i sensed in your voice.

good luck which whatever route you choose

From: merepsychosis
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: Thank You
Date: Tue, 13 Jun 2000

I would like to thank you for your beautiful music,
in this age of teen pop groups and watered down alternative rock
it is truly hard to come across music like yours!
I find this honesty in your music which I’ve never heard in any other.
You are a true musical genius.

Thank you again

From: blueicefrancis
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 13 Jun 2000

Hi my name is Francis. When I first heard your Threshold piece I was so moved that I nearly cryed and my heart was held captive for the whole time. I find your music sensitive and pleasant to listen to. I am a figure skater and put together tapes to listen to while I am skating and love to hear it when I am there. Strangly enough I live in Redmond Washington as well.If your interested I would love to talk to you. You can see a picture of me at “Fragile Pieces” site I have put up.

From: david.nunez
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Sat, 10 Jun 2000

Hi Courtnee,

I just wanted to congratulate you on your latest installment of songs.
Atonement is absolutely one of the most beautiful songs I have heard in a long
while. Please keep up the good work.


From: in_text
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 8 Jun 2000

congratulations! you are a great artist! your music touch my heart and soul so
deep! very, very good.
soon i will put u in my home page cover to show u to the brazilian people.
u can take a look,

From: JonbOb0
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 6 Jun 2000

Not Applicable,
I heard all yer stuff about a week ago and i LOVE IT!…The emotional
backbone is soooooo sweet…I added you to artist i like instantly…
And im asking for the permission to use the braveheart sample.
Also, If you wanted to get to gether to write some more stuff, I would
Be out of my mind in joy…I dont think anything compares to the
beauty of your voice…

Till yesterday,
:-:Take time to ride the tide of ambience.

From: dserkland
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 25 May 2000


I’m listening to some of your MP3s right now. Nice. Pretty pictures, too
;^) is that YOU?

Is that you singing? Some of the songs sound like a banshee wailing &
pining in an abandoned abbey in the Welsh countryside…. Yep I heard all
that! Would you consider trading samples? I like to do alot of droney
ambient stuff that might work well with your vocals, and I’ve always been
interested in trading sounds with people I’ve not met….

Equip tip: The Mackie is nice – I’ve heard – but get yourself a good
preamp, you might start recording with guitar again!

Why don’t more girls make music?

take it easy,

PS: Check me out! Ignore that picture, too –

From: rdevries
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Mon, 22 May 2000

I’d just like to tell you that I have never heard deeper music than this in all
my days. It’s blowing my mind. Thanks for the experience. You’re the best.


From: livio.sandel
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: your songs
Date: Mon, 22 May 2000

my name is Livio Sandel, from Italy.
With Luca and Leonardo, we broadcast a radio show from Padua (40 Km east of
( inside the show, i have a section where
we speak about
music on the net and music through the net.
I download your songs from, and i’m going to play some tunes of
yours next wednesday.
Following it, I’ll put a link to your web site on our pages, and insert one
of your song in the Megaphone “station”.
If you have some comments, observations, remarks, feel free to contact me…

Livio Sandel

From: walldren
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Sun, 21 May 2000


I just wanted to say that I checked out your music and I found it deeply moving
and emotional. You have a great deal of talent.

Your music gives me pause for thought about my own stuff on Now if I
could just get my hands on a real synth, I’d be ready to go! :)

Best Regards,
Scott Walldren

From: DeviantSix
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 18 May 2000

Your music is amazing. Have you heard the Gladiator sound track? It has that
singer from Dead Can Dance on it (I am such a tard I don’t know her
name)..anyway great stuff and you remind me a lot of that.

ok now the real reason I am writing is I would like to do a remix of your music
maybe a la Delerium style. Let me know how that idea sounds to you.


From: ericjevitts
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 18 May 2000

I really enjoy listening to your music and am wondering when you are going to
release something new…..
Keep Shining,

From: mostly_harmles
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Mon, 15 May 2000

Love your artist name. Heard Threshold on the free cd
and loved it. Something I can really go to sleep to. I don’t know if
you’re into anime but it seems to go with Battle Angel Alita quite
well if you know the story. I think you might like it. I’m going to shell
out the dough for you CD and I would like to have it autographed if
at all possible. Thanx a bunch for listening to the mad jabberings of
a fan!

Mostly Harmless

From: richard
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 11 May 2000

was just listening to your tracks, you have some very creative ideas and themes.
definitely keep using your voice in music it will set you apart from the crowd.
if i were to characterize your sound i would think of the sailor lost at sea
following the voice of siren in the distance being drawn into her spell.


From: steve_mackay
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 9 May 2000

Hey Courtnee,

I really liked your music. I just thought I’d drop you a line and tell you your doing great stuff. Nice and
relaxed. (what I heard) Instantly made me feel soothed. No shit either.

So . . .


From: burton1
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Fri, 5 May 2000

I think your music is beautiful.


From: sniperwolf75mm
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 2 May 2000

Dear: Courtnee / not applicable

I guess ill start by introducing my self, my name is Jarrett Anderson and
I must say that your music is amazing and has touched me greatly. Some songs can
almost bring me to tears. I’ve been looking for music like this for a long time
and haven’t found it till now. Listening to your music opens my mind and I can
picture my self some where ells in the world. One of my more famous quoits I’m
known to say among my friends and coworkers is “When music can take you to
another place, then you know it is true music”, and your music definitely dose

From: twhebertson
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 2 May 2000


From: webb
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Mon, 1 May 2000

Came across your site through KUTV
, I’m a friend of John from Flatstick
Not Applicable is awesome. The atmospheres you create are sublime. I could get
lost in them for hours. I don’t have a credit card so I’ll be downloading all
the Not Applicable music from the site. Thanks.

I’m not in your leauge but if you want check out CHOB at

, It’s
my first attemps at going solo with a computer.


From: sandrar
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Sun, 30 Apr 2000


we have just added your song to our
Vector Electronic Station. We love your
song Threshold.

We are also building seperate web site
that includes a Independent Musician Directory. You are listed and your
name is a direct link to your web location.
Under Music Center
It’s still under a lot of contruction.
Keep up the great work.

From: soul
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 25 Apr 2000

Your songs are beautiful,truly beautiful. Touched my heart. I Wish you success so
that others may enjoy the feeling you create in your songs.
Thank you.
Gaz :-)

From: XxHiGHRoLAxX
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 18 Apr 2000

I don’t usally listen to this type of
music but yours kinda hit a spot and i really enjoy it. I must say preterition is a great song i listen to it over and over.


From: spyder36
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 13 Apr 2000

Awesome! Truly AWESOME!! This is what I have Been looking for all my life. Your
Music grasps my soul. Tears run down my face as I listen to it. Your CD’s will
be the favorite part of my collection.
Thank you! Thank you! thank you!

From: boochile
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Fri, 7 Apr 2000

Very cool, and creepy shit. You could possibly get a deal with divergence as a
background song in a movie.

From: j.zorko
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 4 Apr 2000

Courtnee, You rock, albeit in an ambient way :-)


John, Falling You

From: Khughes222
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Mon, 27 Mar 2000


I was just writing to tell you that I love your work. It is so great. I could
sit in my bed and use a little imagination and listen to your music and in one
night I could go to more places in my mind than an 80 year old commercial pilot
has flown in all of his life. How old were you when you started making this
music. I am only 16 now and trying to get some equiptment to make my own. I
think I am going to try more along the lines of Trance and Techno though because
for some reason I have never been good at composing the spiritual mood tunes
like your work.
Well, I guess I will go now.


From: stats_canada
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Sat, 25 Mar 2000

I just found your music on and I love it!!! Very soothing, moody.
It give’s the sensation of flying and falling at the same time. And it’s not
something I find everyday. Wonderful stuff!!!


From: diastereo
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Fri, 24 Mar 2000

Not applicable:
I like your music-haunting and beautiful. I have added Preterition to my
station, “Curiosity”.


From: paul
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 2 Mar 2000

Anything that inspires is special.

Maybe you’ll never know.

So creative, talented, young and attractive.

Too bad you’re probably already taken.

To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Wed, 1 Mar 2000

Your music is AMAZING!


From: craig_film
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 29 Feb 2000

Diversify a little. Spread your wings more with your voice. Take more risks…
Expland on Convergence… no beat or anything… just push your vocal limits
with passion. I would bet by your smile (playing, or fake playing the Yamaha)
you have some passion that hasn’t crept out… Send me your next song…

Then let’s talk…

From: canoviktor
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Sun, 27 Feb 2000

How do you tap into those feelings so well?

Listening to your music re-awakens lost, fleeting moments that are just too
deeply preserved in ones soul. Without your kind of music it would be hard to
experience them again.

Thank you!


From: product42
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 13 Jan 2000


BTW: If you ever get bored and want to work on a project some time I think your vocals are amazing and have endless possibilities. I am VERY impressed… josh From: To: “Not Applicable” Subject: viewer email Date: Tue, 4 Jan 2000 Thank you for writing such beautiful music. I love your minimalist style, and your vioce is positively gorgeous. As soon as I get my credit card bill payed (gotta love maxing it out for the holidays), your single is the first thing on my I-Must-Have-This list. I am eagerly awaiting more of your masterpieces. Thank you once again. Crunchberries and tire irons, Dok Fenderson From: To: “Not Applicable” Subject: viewer email Date: Fri, 26 Nov 1999 Hello: My name is Jorge and I’m from Puerto Rico. I just write to say that your work is awesome. I’ve been making Ambient music myself for 3 years. I loved your work and i think it’s some of the most mesmerizing music I’ve ever heard. Especially the vocals. I’d love to work with you some day. If you’d like to hear an excerpt of my work please go to: Thanks for sharing your music and take care, – Jorge Castro From: To: “Not Applicable” Subject: viewer email Date: Mon, 22 Nov 1999 I was just listening to your song (Infinite Reality). I like the title, very telling. You have a lovely voice and I like the ambience in the song! I hope you release your album sooner that later, I would buy it! I hope to begin producing my own music some day. Although, I won’t be singing. I love MP3, there’s so much cool music!! And I like the fact that it’s made by people who love music and want to experiment with sound and share their talent. Take it easy and keep recording. David in Denver From: To: “Not Applicable” Subject: viewer email Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999 Yay! You entered the Electronic charts at #15 and the Ambient charts at #2! This is really terrific. From: To: “Not Applicable” Subject: hey Date: Fri, 19 Nov 1999 Hey there. I really enjoyed Infinite Reality, you have a beautiful voice. I was wondering if you would ever consider lending your vocal talents to a track or two on another band’s album…I do solo shit like you, mostly electronica, only problem is, I don’t have an airy, mystical voice. Partly because I’m a guy and partly because I smoke too many cigarettes, but I’d be happy to send you a track to see if you’re into my style, or if you just want to give me some feedback on it. Well, I’m sure I’ve occupied enough of your time so see you later…Keep making music, there’s a shortage of beautiful, musically inclined women in the world. -TJ From: To: “Not Applicable” Subject: hi Date: Thu, 18 Nov 1999 Nice website and music. Keep it up. :-] Signed, Marc eEye Digital Security Team From: “I.Like Merriment” To: “Not Applicable” Subject: Silly person likie! Date: Thu, 18 Nov 1999 Hey! Saw you got a featured spot on – congrats! I’m an amateur tracker (mostly beats right now until I can get at least a midi-outputting keyboard) and Infinite Reality and Untitled are my chill-out-and-meditate songs right now (a big compliment since for me that’s been pretty much a cycle between Clannad and Enya for, oh, five years, with some Slainte mixed in recently… :) ) But those two just captivated me. …

From: xyloxophonic
Subject: viewer email
Date: Fri, 5 Nov 1999

Infinite Reality is absolutely amazing! Hauntingly beautiful. Very nice work.


From: bcshaman
Subject: viewer email
Date: Thu, 4 Nov 1999

I listened to your little rendition of the Brave Heart Theme and loved it. It
gave me chills. You say there that if someone wants to use it in a song they
could e-mail you. Well that’s what I’m doing. I just made a very simple little
tune with your vocals. I added some high and low pitch changes, a weird sample
and a simple trip hop beat. You said it could be used as a trance song but i
felt trip hop when i heard it. My attemt isn’t anything spectacular but you
might like it. Tell me how i can get it to you.

Scott (see: my brave heart – AUX remix)

From: *
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Tue, 2 Nov 1999

Wow. Your music is awesome. I just discovered one of your tunes while going
through our database. I’ve already chosen one of your songs to be the Featured
Song in Electronic for two days, starting November 3rd… it’s well-deserved.

On a personal note, I’ve had a really rough life lately… and your wonderful
music actually brought tears to my eyes. It felt good. Thanks- *


This message sent via by a user who
viewed your web page at!

Date: Fri, 22 Oct 1999
From: Admin
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: Nee Music

Hi Nee!

Just wanted to drop a note to say how much I enjoyed listening to your
music….I was surfing and found the stuff you have online there.
It’s after midnight here, cool and dark, the wind coming in the window,
lights low, just my monitor flickering, and Infinite Reality caressing my
brain through the Sony headphones. Not a bad thursday night. :)

Thanks again, I look forward to your future work.


From: “Tim Erdmann”
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: Your music
Date: Mon, 18 Oct 1999

Hello, Listened to your track, Infinite Reality, liked it a lot. Very
ethereal. How do you record your music?

Time, Music Dept.!

From: kurt4ever
To: “Not Applicable”
Subject: viewer email
Date: Sat, 21 Aug 1999

Wow i just heard your cover of Best Sunday Dress! It sounds fabulous!!!
You are great….I never heard such a good cover of a Hole song! Most
covers or Hole songs sound horrible but yours are beautiful to tell you the
you sound better than Courtney hehehhe you have a beautiful voice
if you ever put out an album I’ll be sure to buy it! Well i’m gonna go and
download your cover of Sugarcoma I hope I hear from you hehehe


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