You said I was safe

“My words may not be pretty enough for you, but they are true and they are mine.” – Mariann Martland

“Nobody will protect you from your suffering.” ― Cheryl Strayed

“Only two things can reveal life’s great secrets: suffering and love.” – Paulo Coelho Well. That explains a lot.

Brothers: A tale of two sons

The game itself was equally amazing.

Was in the bath again, thinking about times in my life I’ve fallen deep, and started looking to my relationship with music. Nirvana. Portishead. Dead Can Dance. Donnie Darko. Batman Begins. Amnesiac. Archive. Hula. The Fountain. Alice: Madness Returns. All music I’ve lived, sunk deep into, invited into a certain significant flow of my life, […]

Gatekeeper covering Lisa

Holy shit. It’s Liddell. I don’t know if anyone else can hear it but me. She started taking over at 1:30, and letting go around 3:45. Though it was seamless and natural while I did it, I don’t think I’ve ever cried so hard to something I’ve recorded before in my life as I realized […]

Listening to KEXP play “Follow your dreams”. First time I have heard Drew and Joe together since right after the shooting. Had to pull over.

R.I.P. Zita the Aerialist, 2004-2012

This year, more than most and less than some, has been a year of letting things go and allowing new things in. In that vein, it seems another identifying aspect of my life has come to a close. Once first recognizing mixed feelings regarding how to credit my aerial acts in “Embodied”, and after months […]

“Madness lingers” – Music from Alice

(if player doesn’t load, please install/update flash) [Audio clip: view full post to listen] Earlier this year, partially due to extended illness, I became deeply entrenched in the game Alice: Madness Returns, which is the sequel to American McGee’s Alice. It’s the first game I’ve really sunk my teeth into in a decade, and once […]

While petting and comforting me last night: “You will find yourself again, soon.” – Edgars Klepers

“Anyone who has been depressed knows this fundamental truth: There are too many of us.” – Tito Titus


I went back out there again. I can’t pass by the Dillard Rd. exit without going miles into nowhere to go drive by that lot and that shack and that tiny store along those uneasily familiar roads. My face is low and slack with a resigned, defeated horror from the moment I turn off the […]

‎”grief is what we call it when we have experienced love.” – Sophia Sky