Posts Tagged ‘self photography’

Process of a digitally edited watercolor

Wednesday, October 14th, 2015

This is a 6 inch by 4 inch watercolor postcard. I used watercolor pens, tea, ballpoint and pencil. I used the above self-photograph image as a reference.

IMG_7562 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> I started with pencil to sketch the basics

IMG_7563 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> Then began adding watercolor pen to the dry paper

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IMG_7567 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> Now time to start adding tea and blending

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Adding ballpoint 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> Adding ballpoint

IMG_7572 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> Adding more watercolor

IMG_7573 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> At this point, I realized my facial dimensions were off. I had made my eyes too small, and too close together. I tried shading and highlighting to make up for the issues.

IMG_7574 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> At this point I realized that not only were my eyes too far apart, but my mouth was too small and too low, also. These are very typical issues for me to have when I am working from a portrait reference.

IMG_7576 768w, 261w, 688w, 1152w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> Once finished, with added highlightsI knew I wouldn’t want to use this as my avatar representation as I’d planned. Though it’s a good painting, it just didn’t look enough like me. The eyes were too small, too close, and the mouth was too small and far away. In addition, the head/hat was a little wonky, too.

IMG_7576 adjusted 768w, 261w, 688w, 1536w" sizes="(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px" /> But then I remembered I have digital art skills too, even though I’ve never used them to fix watercolors. So I adjusted it in Photoshop. :)

A. M.

Wednesday, December 10th, 2014

Self Photographed digital art

Saturday, July 20th, 2013

Canon 40D with Sigma 30mm 1:1.4

Tuesday, July 9th, 2013

Many thanks to my friend Weld for gifting me his previously-neglected Canon 40D SLR camera <3


Saturday, April 7th, 2012

“Om”, Self photographed in 2006.

Original description, added to DeviantArt in a rare response to the comments the image received.

I’ve had a few people politely comment that they feel this piece is inappropriate, or would be inappropriate in some countries. I appreciate their viewpoints and respect that not all people will find my art appropriate, and suppose I should explain in greater detail since this piece seems to bring questions to light. Normally, I leave my pieces to evolve in the mind of the viewer with little direction. But I’ll make an exception.

Om, symbol of the absolute, the be all end all of everything, is a very philosophical and intense symbol which I have chosen with great care in this androgynous piece celebrating my body, mind and spirit. Thankfully I live in a country which will allow for me to express myself in this way, even if it is turning into a deranged festering shithole in others.

I used the Om because I felt it fitting placed on the breast and heart of a strong, other worldly woman with the balls to display what she is in addition to having the breasts to feed your sons and daughters. Breasts that are then forced to be covered and hidden away because of the fearful manipulation of the men who think they rule this world and attempt to dominate the women in it through oppression, abuse and fear. I feel it is a showcasing of the power and wonder that all women hold within themselves and so very often hide away, to the point that they in fact forget what awesome power they carry within them every moment of the day.

My deviation “Om” is my humble artistic stand against the oppression of all women in all countries and, I feel, a proper illustration of the be all end all of everything. She is ghostly to encompass all women, androgynous to encompass all sexuality, with dark, tortured, deep and thoughtful eyes. She is bound by the hand but not by the spirit, and she is growing more and more pissed at the treatment of women in this world, her rage building. You can see the oppressed womans great pain as well as her strength and her eventual wrath. She is silent, appearing almost at peace, but watching. Waiting. The sight of her brings fear to some. And it should.

I think it’s bullshit that the givers of life are raped, beaten, oppressed, discarded, mutilated, forced to cover their faces, sold into slavery, abused, ignored, and belittled because the sons they have brought to the world are afraid. “Om” is for every woman who has been beaten by her father, raped by a man because she was ‘so pretty’, passed up for a job because she has breasts, eaten last because it’s ‘her place’, been forced to fuck for money, had her clit cut off because her pleasure is sin, or otherwise been touched by the skewed reality of the days world views on female humanity. The only thing I wish I could have done differently was use a model who had obviously breast fed, but since I do self photography that was not possible.

The Om symbol has great meaning and depth both to myself as well as those whos culture it derives from. I do not feel that I should censor myself based upon the issues other people have with breasts, expression, a womans power or a womans form, and I find it rather ironic that the symbol for creation would be censored from the breast of a creator. But the world would be quite boring if we all thought the same way, now wouldn’t it.

In a nutshell, I chose to celebrate divinity rather than hide it under a fucking tarp when I created this piece. I hope that clears everything up. If it doesn’t, or you want to hear more, I invite you to check out my friend Ana’s journal entry, created a couple weeks after I did Om. Her clarity of thought is in large part responsible for my ability to explain the meaning of “Om” in this edit and, hopefully, answer your questions.

I don’t usually talk about my deep social and humanist ideals because it feels weird, and if it feels weird to talk about I generally express it artistically in some kind of interpretable way rather than trying to string words together to say what has already been said by someone else. I prefer to provoke free thought with my art rather than say what someone should think about it myself. I’ll be glad to go back to doing that, after this feeble attempt at verbally expressing what this piece means to me. Feel free to continue to allow it to mean whatever it means to you.


Thursday, August 11th, 2011


Wednesday, March 24th, 2010

Yay for fresh starts!

Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009

Hm. Well then.

Apparently, my E:\ drive was not actually located on my external hard drive, as I have assumed. Rather, it was on the drive I partitioned and re-installed XP on last night.

My E:\ drive was the¬†datastore which has housed all my source files for my music, images, and video projects for the last two years. A large fraction of the good pictures I’ve taken are on neevita, though the original high quality images of my self photography are now gone.

As for the music and video – I don’t know how much I care to recall at this particular moment how very little of it ever ventured from my drive. I’m sure it will come up over time as I think about things I want and discover they are gone.

Seems rather silly, that the data I’ve been worried about losing if my drives ever failed (or I wiped them out), are the 150 gigs of replacable mp3’s I have.

I suppose one of the fortunate aspects of this, aside from having a clean slate which I do rather enjoy, is how the experience has shown me what kind of relationship I’ve developed with my artwork.

Bummer. Thankfully, I will make more.

Additionally, my potential moving costs now include an external terabyte, which I’ve been putting off for a day too long it seems, to back up what I have left and hopefully prevent this from happening again any time soon. I’m offering all paintings currently for sale at a 25% discount, INCLUDING COMMISSIONS.

White Noise – New self-photographed digital art

Monday, April 20th, 2009

Modeling, styling, photography, post, and photo manip all by me. I pulled these out alone at my house in about 3 hours from start to finish Used vector flower brushes II by yasney chan, and Tree borders III brushes.

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