Well, here we are again.

After some time keeping my head barely above water, my hearts busted open into a suck wound of fuzzies and my brain is linking up solutions again. Good night!  What will I wake up to, though? Ugh, I hate waking up. Maybe that adjustment today worked, but I can’t know until I sleep how things […]

Revisiting pencil

Going a layer deeper in my pencil skills. I feel as though I used to have this down pretty well when I was younger, but I need different drugs now or something. These are both within the last few days. The framed piece on the right will be given away next month. $15 and above […]


Huh. Baking pies is fucking messy. Like seriously, the oven is a battlefield. Guts dripped everywhere. It’s a strawberry and rhubarb. Strawberry and rhubarb that I helped harvest today at the farm, and then came home and made a fucking pie out of it. For the filling I used brown sugar, lemon zest/juice, cinnamon, a […]

Next up: The Bosque Village

The conversations have been had, the mutual admiration has been expressed, the values and goals are well aligned, the time is right, the action item list is soft drafted. I’ve the plane ticket and the passport renewal submitted in plenty of time (presuming no catastrophic postal issues) and am thus ready to let the population […]

Road Trip Cancelled. Plan of Action: Engaged

I have, roughly, $6000 in unappropriated savings, at current. I also have, roughly, 3 months left at my less-than-market living situation. This has incited an exceptionally stressful dichotomy of needs; and a sobering wakeup call to how unbelievably fucking expensive it’s gotten to live out here. I gave up the studio this month to slice […]

Epic motorcycle trip is Epic

After crunching the numbers and needing a long walkabout about now anyway, I’ve determined that I will be riding the motorcycle solo down to Palm Springs and back to take my Grief Recovery Method certification workshop next month. My definite stops on the down route will be looking something like: Portland, Grants Pass, Crescent City, […]

When I was just a little girl…

Want to help me flesh out some specifics from a scene in my newest show? Please respond with what immediately comes to mind when presented with the phrase “Inner Child”. Mine was: Inconvenient asshole.

SEAF 2013

Disclaimer: After a long week on my feet, I am a bit fried mentally, more than a bit exhausted physically, and yet still rather awake and energetic. My creativity is in the shitter, though, so if you’re hoping for poetry unfortunately I doubt you’ll find much this time. You will, however, find a blog entry […]

Don’t go to art school

You’ve got other options. You don’t have to go to college to be an artist. Not once have I needed my diploma to get a job. Nobody cares. The education is all that matters. The work that you produce should be your sole concern. View story at Medium.com

Meeting Stockholm

In the airport feeling sad and disconnected, so I bought myself a new friend. One of the stewardesses on my flight asked me if I’d named her yet, and when I said I hadn’t, she declared that her name is Nalle, which is Swedish for “teddy”. For some reason I was really touched by that. […]

If London is a watercolor, New York is an oil painting.

“For in that city there is neurosis in the air which the inhabitants mistake for energy.” ― Evelyn Waugh The New York subway has its own distinctive scent, like a cocktail of black tar and metal shavings, that I immediately find familiar and comforting every time I retun. You’d think it would mostly smell like […]

Breaking Bad: R.I.P. XP-30, 2001-2013

Yesterday, while troubleshooting glitching technology, again, rather than practicing music, again, I came to a place of silence. I stopped hitting buttons and searching google, and sat, and thought. I had already emailed the event coordinators for Tomb and the Womb and said that due to technical difficulties I would not be singing “Covering Lisa” […]


It’s time to start designing the cover-up.


I’ve been thinking lately about my decision to, though currently saving for a house, and recently leaving one of my part time jobs, simultaneously agree to increase my office rent by about 75% for the next year in order to add a second room for an art studio. In some ways, and surely on the […]

G.T.F.O. 2013

Self Photograph, Amsterdam 2010 May 18 – 19: Road trip to SMF with Bev, hanging at her Mama’s house with a pool, visiting family and friends in the Sacramento area. June 2 – 5: Drive down to SFO, stay a few nights with Prophei, high probability of music work in the studio. June 6 – […]

Modeling the Arts

Later this month, I will be art modeling for Beverly Naidus at the UW in Tacoma. Through reading, a variety of studio art practices and an analysis of contemporary media and art, we will examine notions of body image and why so many people in modern mainstream society are obsessed with their appearances. We will […]

“If you don’t build your dream someone will hire you to help build theirs.” – Tony Gaskins

Rock Lobster: Finding home

Ever since I can remember really, I’ve felt a deep sadness when passing seafood tanks full of crab and lobster in the supermarkets. The way they’re piled in on one another with their claws drawn shut, robbed of their dignity and eventually their lives, bothers me. Deeply, profoundly, seeing them treated that way has always […]

I think putting on a music show every fall might just end up being my thing.

I totally know what my next art show is going to be.

“The best part of any meal are the ingredients brought by friends.” – Courtnee Papastathis

What I learned on my vacation

The basic takeaway from my two weeks away is this: I am tired of worrying how every fucking decision I make and every fucking thing I decide to do with my life is going to make the world a better place. I am tired of being in a self-propelled forced loop that screams to me […]

Video game collaboration idea: Mixed gameplay, dramatic plot-driven, 60 playable hours — varied and beautiful high production value, in chapters, with cinematics to continue the story. It would be difficult to die, however if you do, you will have to start the entire story over, even if you die at hour 56 of it. 150 […]

If I was young, I’d flee this town. I’d bury my dreams underground. Let the season begin.

“This will make you love again”

[Audio clip: view full post to listen] Nick Cave & Warren Ellis – Carnival Pink Martini – Que Sera Sera Husky Rescue – New Light of Tomorrow IAMX – Running A Perfect Circle – Peace Love and Understanding IAMX – Spit it Out Waldeck – Fallen Angel Inbar Bakal – The Bride Peace Orchestra – […]