In so many ways, we were profoundly comfortable and well suited. And you were so nice to me. Affectionate, generous, caring. Dedicated. Loving. Available. Consistent.But too consistent. Frozen in carbonate consistent. Unwilling, if it meant loosening your utter strangle hold, the compulsive denial, the tamping down of your darkness, that actually ran the show. You […]

For Zita

New mix tape; revisiting the music I’ve performed to as Zita the Aerialist. Thank you, Zita. You saved my life. (if player doesn’t load, please install/update flash) [Audio clip: view full post to listen]

Mixed in Mono

Before the Tomb and the Womb and Covering Lisa, there was Mixed in Mono. Mixed in Mono is a primitive recording I made by layering multiple vocals into a single track with Goldwave circa 1996, using the Windows sound recorder. It was discovering the music of Dead Can Dance during a time in which everything […]

Living lean: cleaning out clutter in my life.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my house, and how I got to this place of being EXCITED to live in ~200sft, from where I was when I was younger. At one point when I was about 15, I realized that I’d never be able to run away from home unless I figured out what […]

Yesterday, I believed I never would have done, what I did today.

Was in the bath again, thinking about times in my life I’ve fallen deep, and started looking to my relationship with music. Nirvana. Portishead. Dead Can Dance. Donnie Darko. Batman Begins. Amnesiac. Archive. Hula. The Fountain. Alice: Madness Returns. All music I’ve lived, sunk deep into, invited into a certain significant flow of my life, […]

“I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable and beautiful and afraid of nothing as though I had wings.” ― Mary Oliver

R.I.P. Zita the Aerialist, 2004-2012

This year, more than most and less than some, has been a year of letting things go and allowing new things in. In that vein, it seems another identifying aspect of my life has come to a close. Once first recognizing mixed feelings regarding how to credit my aerial acts in “Embodied”, and after months […]

Hula: Pop me a Pill

Hula – Pop me a pill (mp3 file) Got to find something To smile about So when I see you I look happy Except for all the drinking, I’m healthy. Pop me a pill Oooh baby I will even front you The money For making you feel better all over There’s no fuckin reason to […]