me, Clayton, rape.

me, Clayton, rape. It wasn’t rape because that’s what he growled at me the first time he overwhelmed and coerced me when I’d just said I wanted to wait before we started having sex together. It wasn’t rape because he’d only gone down on me and fingered me and heroically resisted sticking his cock in […]

Still pooping on rape culture

So I was told yesterday that comically centering my own nonsexual nudity in any of the constant reminders I post about my patreon existing is disingenuous, because I rail against rape culture.Mmmkay. I was told that it’s ok to use nudity in my art, which I have done for over 20 years, but it’s not […]

For Kirsten

I told you so There is nothing So precious As a sisterhood That softly cautions Of ones ability To disregard Our profound knowing Instead, to fill His jagged caverns Brimmed in untapped dark With the naive light Of our hopeful Imagination

Let me get Pretty for you.

FuckYouDelete

It’s become so amazing to me how much commonly-accepted forms of dialogue are just flat out silencing, erasing, entitled fucking bullshit. Not long ago I would feel ‘irrationally’ slighted over it, and blame my ‘damage’ for my ‘sensitivity’ and wonder what was wrong with me. Fuck that noise. I ain’t internalizing that manipulative crap anymore. […]

Impromptu road trip. I am not taking as many pictures as I might have expected, but I also haven’t gotten to where I am going, yet. I did stop in Idaho to take in the lake for a bit.

“There are times when we have to stand for justice. And there are times that in standing for justice, we have to turn away from people that we would ordinarily want to be with. That is the difficult part of struggle.” – Bell Hooks

These are the places rape culture starts

This is an amazing account of the very real corrosion and trauma that results in loved ones blaming the victim of sexual abuse/assault in the name of trying to make everything ok again. I related to this, and I am glad I got away. http://www.buzzfeed.com/michelletea/my-stepfather-the-peeping-tom

Thanks for that, dude.

“The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.” ― Edmund Burke This Ghomeshi thing, how his friends and community are admitting to knowing he was up to some shit, brings to light some ugly things for me. Ugly things that encouraged me to continue raping in my […]

If ever confused about where one stands on an issue, figure after the “, but” is where their priority lies. — Courtnee Fallon Rex

“My words may not be pretty enough for you, but they are true and they are mine.” – Mariann Martland

Forever in debt to your priceless advice

https://soundcloud.com/soundofnee/covering-nirvana-heart-shaped-box-whim Heart Shaped Box on a whim. Because fuck it. Played live with my Harmony G-XT which I am still getting used to.

“The greatest gift you can give someone is your own personal development.” – Jim Rohn

Not all Men.

In the usual world, the occasional anomaly Elliot whatshisfucks not withstanding, it seems it’s always the ones who say “I’m not that guy” who fall the hardest when they behave like one; the ones who deny their darkness as from another breed are, of course, the least capable of fessing up and overcoming their embodiments […]

Regarding Elliot

“Men are afraid women will laugh at them. Women are afraid men will kill them.” – Margaret Atwood.

Compassion baiting is bullshit and I don’t put up with it anymore.

Ever wonder why being judged for responding ‘too angrily’ pisses you off even more? Good insight here. http://www.buddhistpeacefellowship.org/5-big-problems-with-compassion-baiting/ – Twitter I discovered “5 Big Problems with Compassion Baiting by Katie Loncke” a few months ago, and loved it. I related to it in terms of the obese shame demon the article had helped me figure […]

Sketchbook update

First page with color in my tiny sketchbook. It will be full by summer, I’m betting.

“And God promised men that good and obedient wives would be found in all corners of the world. Then he made the earth round, and laughed and laughed and laughed.”

I’m over it now.

I’d stopped really writing here for a while. I did it because someone who was formerly influential to me in my life, who is historically by far the most damaging and hurtful person I’ve ever experienced a relationship with, shamed and mocked me for it, and for my artwork, and basically said a lot of […]

Dear slimy guys

Dear all y’all slimy guys, Hi, slimy guys. How the hell are ya. How’s that closet today. I happen to know that, in addition to being slimy (shhh, don’t tell on us), y’all have a lot of other traits, too. Like being smart, and funny, and loyal, and other stuff. I know that deep down, […]

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Last year, I focused on stabilizing my psychological core. Among the multiple misconceptions and obsolete beliefs I resolved, in doing so I dissolved most of the remaining tendrils of my identification with needing other people to be/act/do/behave in certain ways in order for me to feel capable and worthwhile. This year, I am tackling the remaining […]

EMFUCKINGBODIED

I swear I just saw myself for the first time I told myself in the mirror As I cried after connecting so incredibly profoundly with multiple people (And once again meeting another incredible man I can’t have in my life like I would prefer, god damn stupid growth opportunities) “You are.. An amazing woman. And […]

When I was just a little girl…

Want to help me flesh out some specifics from a scene in my newest show? Please respond with what immediately comes to mind when presented with the phrase “Inner Child”. Mine was: Inconvenient asshole.

SEAF 2013

Disclaimer: After a long week on my feet, I am a bit fried mentally, more than a bit exhausted physically, and yet still rather awake and energetic. My creativity is in the shitter, though, so if you’re hoping for poetry unfortunately I doubt you’ll find much this time. You will, however, find a blog entry […]

So I hit the street, and I walk the walk, with big thundering steps. I stand up straight, and I’m breathing deep, like I’m on a mission. I’m heading home, to my sanctuary, where I can unload. Brilliance is coming, I can feel it seething out my pores, vibrating, anticipating its escape. I’m gonna make […]