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For Zita

Monday, February 23rd, 2015

New mix tape; revisiting the music I’ve performed to as Zita the Aerialist.

http://neevita.net/performance-gallery/

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Thank you, Zita. You saved my life.

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“Madness lingers” – Music from Alice

Thursday, April 26th, 2012

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Earlier this year, partially due to extended illness, I became deeply entrenched in the game Alice: Madness Returns, which is the sequel to American McGee’s Alice. It’s the first game I’ve really sunk my teeth into in a decade, and once I did that, I thrashed it around in my mouth like a rabid bulldog for weeks.

I found myself relating to the visuals, storyline and music in the sequal even more than I had the original, and in ways I can’t summarize quickly. There were even pieces of my original songs that stuck out in this soundtrack. The feel and movement of the audio in the game has, but especially had then, a sinisterly heavenly feel to it. It overtook me, gave me nightmares, personified my own flavor of festering pain I’d refluxed up at the time, and extended its hand to me.

In a word, it was fucking beautiful.

I don’t recall how I stumbled across wickedslicks1003‘s game extensions on youtube, but I did, and I’m glad for it. I still try to fall asleep to this stuff sometimes, but because I still have really fucked up dreams when I do that, I mostly listen to it as background and sing with it. I imagine at some point soon I will make good on my priority to learn how to play some of it, and I won’t be surprised if some of this music makes its way into Obsidian next year.

Above isa flash-player offering my favorite of the games musical pieces, extended into ~10 minute long tracks.

Below, one of my interpretations.

Enjoy.

https://soundcloud.com/soundofnee/alice-madness-returns

“Dancing with Ghosts” – Laced with sense memory

Friday, September 16th, 2011

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This is actually one of my massage playlists I created for the spa, that I’ve somewhat re-purposed for hangout time at home. It includes my favorite song from one of my all-time favorite bands, Hula, a couple songs I performed to when I was at The Pink Door, and some very special movie scores. There are a few repeats from past lists here. Enjoy.

The Baudelaire Orphans by Thomas Newman
Mulholland Drive by Angelo Badalamenti
Song of the Black Swan by Pink Martini
The Money Train by Nick Cave & Warren Ellis
The Other Boleyn Girl by Paul Cantelon
White by Naomi
New Light of Tomorrow by Husky Rescue
The Conscious Touch by Healing Therapy Music
Song for Bob by Nick Cave and Warren Ellis
Track 2 by Sigur Ros
Que Sera Sera by Pink Martini
Betty’s Theme by Angelo Badalamenti
Col by Morcheeba
100 Gun Salute by Hula
Song for Charly by Nick Cave and Warren Ellis
Liquid Spear Waltz by Michael Andrews
Amnesia by Jessica Bailiff
Love Theme by Angela Badalamenti
A Dream Within A Dream Nalepa remix by The Glitch Mob

“Sexy” – A tribute to my Depeche mode love-life

Thursday, April 14th, 2011

A collection of my favorite darkly sexy songs, inspired by my current lover.

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Who am I by Peace Orchestra
Never Leave by Hecq
Angel by Massive Attack
Mouth by Bush
The Darkest Star by Depeche Mode
Lights by Archive
Morsecode by Halou
Little 15 Ulrich Schnauss Remix by Depeche Mode
A Prayer for England by Massive Attack
Floater by Waldeck
In Other Worlds by Azam Ali
Nothing Else by Archive
The Bride by Inbar Bakal
Again by Archive
Kulu Valley Ambient Remix by Kashmmir
I Put a Spell on You (dub) by Courtnee Papastathis
You Make Me Feel Spectre Remix by Archive

“This is my Day” – Folky trip-hop.

Friday, July 2nd, 2010

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It’s been a few months – time for another playlist! I’ve been shifting to more folky, lighter sounding music in my old age. But, I still have my dirty, crunchy electro close at hand. Enjoy.

Elephant Gun by Beirut
I’m Going To Stop Pretending That I Didn’t Break Your Heart by Eels
Big Dipper by Cracker
Werewolf by Cat Power
Between The Bars by Elliott Smith
Lucky by Radiohead
Animals by Cocorosie
What Remains by Foals
Atlas Air by Massive Attack
Climbing Up the Walls by Radiohead
Little By Little by Blue Foundation
Sooner Or Later by Trifonic
My Day by Blue Foundation
La Duchess Anne by Grizzly Bear

“For the shorties” – Not quite full length

Monday, January 12th, 2009

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Don’t get any big ideas
they’re not gonna happen
You paint yourself white
and feel up with noise
but there’ll be something missing

Now that you’ve found it, it’s gone
Now that you feel it, you don’t
You’ve gone off the rails

So don’t get any big ideas
they’re not going to happen
You’ll go to hell for what your dirty mind is thinking

She stands stark naked and she beckons you to bed
don’t go, you’ll only want to come back again

Radiohead – Nude
The For Carnation – Tales (Live From The Crypt)
Hula – 100 Gun Salute
Beth Gibbons & Rustin Man – Funny Time Of Year
Black Lab – The Window
Andra Dare – Fury
Linda Perry feat. Grace Slick – Knock me out
Archive – Waste
Sneaker Pimps – Lightning Field
The Secret Meeting – Forwards And Sideways
Black Lab – This Night
I Am X – S.H.E
Beth Gibbons & Rustin Man – Spider Monkey
Various – November Willis

Hula: Pop me a Pill

Friday, September 26th, 2008

Hula – Pop me a pill (mp3 file)

Got to find something
To smile about
So when I see you
I look happy

Except for all the drinking,
I’m healthy.

Pop me a pill
Oooh baby
I will even front you
The money

For making you feel better all over

There’s no fuckin reason to cry
But you’re such a lady
A lady

Don’t you know what people are saying?

“While you were gone” – Hell hath no fury.

Wednesday, July 9th, 2008

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I am displeased.

I’ve allowed myself to remain deeply involved with someone who claims not to be ‘dating’ anyone, who categorizes me as a ‘friend’ along with everyone else in his life. I’ve allowed him to hide behind semantics and phrasing that I’ve known are bullshit to enable himself to enjoy me and another woman who also considers herself to be in a relationship with him. I’ve allowed for his selfish, dishonest, and often utterly ridiculous reactions to make me question my sanity, my motives, to feel controlling, out of line and unhinged – just as he’s hoped they would.

Even though I have been clear from the start where I stood in regards to multiple relationships in relation to ours, I have not stood my ground. I have allowed for his actions and my own to damage me over and over, as I quietly read books about strengthening the bonds between lovers, searching for new ways to connect and show affection toward him.

I’ve acted such a fool.

I’ve been operating under the constructs of a romantic relationship with this man, giving and receiving much more than I have ever given any supposed ‘friend’, based on whispers of manipulative assurance and lies of omission (and often outright lies) that didn’t line up with his actions at all. I’ve done this all in the name of growth and consciousness expansion while he’s lied point blank to my face and been insincere, greedy and dishonest for months, perhaps longer. How utterly irresponsible of me.

He’s recently told me I am the love of his life, declined advances from people by declaring that his heart belongs to me and has for a long time, and has been sleeping with me. We’ve talked of babies and marriage and remain bonded in chemistry thick enough I can barely see through it. Even as I have sought to end romantic relations with him he’s consistently resisted and acted out in protest. Yet, I am assured to be a ‘friend’ to him, to someone who is clear about having strong feelings for him with whom he has recent history. It’s been a source of profound tension and distress for me, and I’ve often felt insulted.

I kept telling myself to be a ‘bigger’ person and to accept things how they were, even though they were hurtful. I wrote numerous pep talks for myself about growing past what I wanted, what I felt was right for me, changing my standards. It was all bullshit. I allowed his constant refusal to listen to me about this to mean that my feelings must have been wrong. That the respect, and the honesty I wanted was wrong.

I am hurt by the mixed signals, distressed and suspicious of the vagueness, and I always have been. I am angry about the defensive wall that is put up every time I’ve attempted to address this triad with him – even simply that it exists. I am saddened and confused by the inconsistency with which he represents our relationship. I am frustrated by his persistent unwillingness to recognize my feelings, my warnings, about these discomforts I’ve had, even when I’ve been in tears over them.

I’ve been met with a constant standoff about any details regarding his relationship with her. I am furious with his resistence to owning his actions as precipitating the tensions between the three of us, and his excuses. I am sick of being lead on and sick of watching him lead her on like we’re both fucking stupid.

I’ve been involved in a shadow what I want for myself since he approached me in April wanting to rebuild our relationship. I’ve trusted that whatever we ended up having would build trust and strength and be celebrated honestly and be protected. That’s not the case, and it hasn’t been for a long time. I’ve been utterly played.

And yet there I’ve been, still giving this guy my all, gut wrenched and walking on eggshells.

It’s always something, isn’t it. A mutual interest. A book. A text message from across the country. Some clothes. I break free, but there is always something to grapple to, and get the hooks back in me.

Enough. I’m finished being this person.

EDIT: Turns out he’s been fucking us both consistently for a year, and is also screwing someone else he’s been lying to us about. Awesome.

“Show me your happy” – Panning the gold

Tuesday, July 8th, 2008

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All stuff I had in my collection. Soon, a list of all new stuff I discovered from the suggestions

Green Day – Basket Case
Muse – Feeling Good
Of Montreal – Requiem For O.M.M.2
Destroyer – Virgin With a Memory
Caribou – Bees
Moby – Slipping Away
Fatboy Slim – Demons
The Notorious B.I.G. – Big Poppa
My Dad Is Dead – I Had A Dream
Elf Power – All The World Is Waiting
The Decemberists – Apology Song
Islands – Humans
Ani DiFranco – Gravel
Head Like A Kite – Six Bags Of Confetti
Flogging Molly – The Likes Of You Again
Whale – Deliver the Juice
Cornelius – Thank You For The Music
Soul Coughing – St. Louise Is Listening
Pink – Love Song
Folk Implosion – Natural One
Electric President – Monsters
Beck – Dark Star
Gorillaz – Man Research (Clapper)
Propellerheads – History Repeating
De-Phazz – Squeeze The Trigger
A Trip To Brazil – Edu Lobo: To Say Goodbye

“Symphonic Resonence” – Instrumental

Saturday, May 24th, 2008

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Hans Zimmer And James Newton Howard – Barbastella
Clint Mansell – Work
Thomas Newman – The Baudelaire Orphans
Michael Andrews – Time Travel
Trevor Jones – Emma
Klaus Badelt – Always Knew
Eric Serra – Mondoshawan
Hans Zimmer And James Newton Howard – Vespertilio
Clint Mansell – Stay With Me
Graeme Revell – Believe In Angels
Max Richter – Arbenita (11 years)
Michael Andrews – The Artifact and Living
Thomas Newman – Power of denial
Michael Andrews – Tell Your Father To Fuck Himself
Massive Attack – Sam
Clint Mansell – First Snow
Tyler Bates – Goodbye My Love
Angelo Badalamenti With The City Of Prague Philharmonic – Mulholland Drive

“FUCK YOU” anyway.

Sunday, March 16th, 2008

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– Glen Hansard, Markéta Irglová & The Frames – Leave
– Joseph Arthur – My Home Is Your Head
* Depeche Mode – The Sinner in Me
* Kruder & Dorfmeister – Going Under
* Not Applicable – I Put a Spell on You (Dub)
– Nine Inch Nails – Reptile
* Depeche Mode – Rush
– Joseph Arthur – Stumble And Pain
* Tool – Pushit
* Maktub – Dichotomy
– Stabbing Westward – Darkest Days
* Depeche Mode – Dirt
– Depeche Mode – The Darkest Star
* Archive – Fuck U

“You could have ruled the whole world” if you’d had the chance

Wednesday, June 6th, 2007

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Muse – Uno
Damien Rice – Rootless Tree
Kidneythieves – Arsenal
Tool – Sober
Assemblage 23 – Damaged
Husky Rescue – Gasoline Girl
Radiohead – Fake Plastic Trees
Sarah McLauchlan – I Love You
Morrissey – To Me You Are A Work Of Art
Dido – Life For Rent
Dirty Vegas – All or Nothing
Hole – Old Age (Unplugged)
Fiona Apple – Better Version of Me
Alanis Morrissette – Are You Still Mad

“Buttery Audio” – Breathing the words straight from your lips

Saturday, May 19th, 2007

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Massive attack – Joy Luck Club
Labradford – Leta O’Steen. Design By Assistance By John Piper
Massive Attack – Bullet Boy
Radiohead – Like Spinning Plates
Air – je sui triste et seul ici-spritual invocation
Nirvana – Something In The Way
Leonard cohen – A Thousand Kisses Deep
Placebo – My Sweet Prince
Harvey summers – Fountain Of Dreams
Dead Can Dance – Crescent
Harold Budd & Brian Eno – Their Memories
Damien Rice – Accidental Babies
Radiohead – Bullet Proof.. I Wish I Was
Massive Attack – Incantations
Archive – You make me feel [Spectre remix]

“Dance me” – Perfection in genre chaos

Friday, May 4th, 2007

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Archive – You make me feel
Leonard Cohen – Dance Me To The End Of Love
Tom Waits – Invitation To The Blues
Joseph Arthur – Crying Like A Man
Tori Amos – Love Song
The Smiths – There Is A Light That Never Goes Out
Placebo – Without You I’m Nothing
Stabbing Westward – You Complete Me
K’s Choice – Iron Flower
Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds – Do You Love Me? (Part Two)
Peter Gabriel – Fourteen Black Paintings
Conjure One – Center of the Sun (Solarstone’s Chilled Out Remix)
And One – 06 It Happened Last Night
De/Vision – Not Made of Gold
Parallel Project – Motive (Featuring Rashree Devi Matson)
Scribe Machine – Fragile – Alpha Conspiracy Mix
Assemblage 23 – 30KFT

“The Neevita Tree” – I miss you.

Tuesday, October 17th, 2006

When darkness belongs to night sky, and nothing else. Nothings right without you here, sentimental feelings never die. The way you feel is real ok with me, the pleasure’s mine.
Hell was a place I knew a long time ago, and this just feels like.. spinning plates.

How I wish you were here. We’re just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year (after year after year).. I look to you and I see nothing. I look to you to see the truth. He says: “I still cry out for you”, and your life knows no answers. Your life knows no answers.

Let the show begin, our eyes roll back and we beg for more. Breathe. I’d quickly give my freedom to be held in your captivity.

Are you ready?

Two of my own remixes in here now. 90 minutes.

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A storm brews…

I can’t remember the last time I wanted heroin like this.

Not Applicable – Mystere (Mekanik Remix)
Archive – Nothing Else
Massive Attack – Live with me (Alternative Version)
Waldeck – Floater
Telefon Tel Aviv – What It Was Will Never Again
Labradford – Pico
Archive – Last Five
Mazzy Star – Fade Into You
Massive Attack – The Academy
Radiohead – Like Spinning Plates
Pink Floyd – Wish You Were Here
Fleetwood Mac – Rhiannon (The Dance)
Beth Gibbons & Rustin Man – Show
Archive – Organ Song
Massive Attack – False Flags
Not Applicable – Divergence (Elden Magentic Remix)
Thomas Newman – Angela undress
Dead Can Dance – The Writing on My Fathers Hand
India Arie – Ready For Love
Michael Andrews – Time Travel

“Wade” – A storytelling playlist of mid 90’s alternative.

Saturday, October 7th, 2006

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This mix came about suddenly. Though by the track listing it looks like there’s a lot of repeating themes and artists, which there are, the mix of music itself is nicely rounded with many moods and sound types throughout. It illustrates, mostly through lyrics, my relationship with my former bestie, who abandoned our friendship after he molested me in my sleep when we were teens.

While I figure it may help to rediscover some classic favorites, I doubt many will identify with the subject matter quite like I do. But isn’t that the point of music anyway? Make it yours. Enjoy.

Track listing:

Counting Crows – Round Here
Nine Inch Nails – Something I Can Never Have
Nirvana – Drain You
Hole – Violet
Nirvana – Rape Me
Sarah McLachlan – Black
Nine Inch Nails – The Becoming
Hole – Old Age
Bush – In A Lonely Place
Hole – Drown Soda
Cranes – Are You Gone
Garbage – Milk
Peaches – Fuck The Pain Away
Alice in Chains – Down In A Hole
Tool – Third Eye
Poe – Control.mp3

“4am” – Ambient, Vocal, Electronic, Downtempo, Trip-Hop

Tuesday, August 15th, 2006

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Description: It’s slightly melancholy, but mostly just pretty trip-hop/electronic music. I recently discovered Archive and am quite impressed by them, even though the lyrics are a little on the elementary side of the scale. I chose other songs to compliment my favorites from them. Great night driving playlist to have on during the long drive home from my movie set at 4am.

Track Listing:

Archive – Headlights
Hooverphonic – L’Odeur Animale
Halou – Morsecode
Archive – Seamless
Hooverphonic – Autoharp
Archive – Again
Tricky – Tony Lambrianou
Archive – Meon
Ellen Allien & Apparat – Rotary
Halou – Honeythief
Archive – Lights
Kashmmir – Kulu Valley [Ambient Remix]

“Jason” – Mellow, Downtempo, Relaxing, Melancholy.

Monday, July 3rd, 2006

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Description: *sigh*

Track listing:

Cranes – K56
Alanis Morissette – I Was Hoping
Set Fire to Flames – Steel Compass
Fiona Apple – Across the Universe
Callisto – Folkslave
R.E.M. – Country Feedback
Mogwai – We’re No Here
Muse – Host
K’s Choice – Iron Flower
Whale – Crying at Airports
Halou – Everything is OK
Blonde Redhead – Hated Because Of Great Qualities
Sarah Mclachlan – Dear God
Radiohead – Sail To The Moon. (Brush The Cobwebs Out Of The Sky.)
Cranes – Particles & Waves
Antony and the Johnsons – Hope There’s Someone