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Can has accordion? (NSFW)

Saturday, May 3rd, 2014

I’ve been itching for an accordion for a couple years – a little one, that suits little me, and doesn’t have too many bass buttons and isn’t too heavy.

Generally, the less complicated, the better, for a musician like I am.

I had a musty Milano at one time, which was a bit too big for me. I sacrificed it for my underwater series with John Cornicello in 2010, which has brought upon many compliments for us (and print sales for him).

Strangely enough, my new accordion also comes from John – A little Hohner, not as musty – which he’s had stashed in his basement and hadn’t dusted off in years. It was brought out today for the shoot we were doing as part of a birthday gift for a client of his.

We shot with it today, as evidenced by the iPhone picture I took of his camera LCD because I could NOT WAIT, and now, it is mine.

Full circle, bitchez. Full circle.

Seriously fuckin stoked.

Thank you John <3

My Bleeding Heart

Thursday, May 1st, 2014

I sold a painting I’m currently showing at Broadcast coffee today, while I was making another one.

Print available (and pillows, clocks and tote bags too)
Original is for Sale

Lifecycle of a rehash

Thursday, March 27th, 2014

It began as a resurrected picture that I asked my friend Sarah to take of me when I was 15.

It then became a ballpoint sketch in my 2×3″ pad

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Then still, it evolved into a 9×12 marker and watercolor picture, thanks to the art projector I now have as a direct result of the amazing people who support me at Patreon (and markers that I got with a holiday gift card that was “only for art supplies”) :P

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Dreeeeeam. Dream dream dreeeam…

Monday, February 24th, 2014

Whenever I want you all I have to do
Is dream

Seeking ambient/interactive performance for Seattle Erotic Art Festival.

Wednesday, February 19th, 2014

Performers! It’s time to start thinking about Seattle Erotic Art Festival! Our Festival dates this year are May 30, 31, and June 1, at the Seattle Center Exhibition Hall.

Performance Director, Courtnee Papastathis, wants to collaborate to create performances which explore and express the themes and emotions within the art that is chosen for the Festival.

Courtnee is cultivating a list of established Seattle performers who are interested in lending their talents to collaborating with her in that fashion. Ideally, you are experienced, versatile, and able to be flexible and take direction.

Email to officially let Courtnee know you’d like to be on her short list of performers who will be invited to preview the visual art, and build their expression upon the themes therein.

REQUIRED MEETING DATES: There will be a meeting scheduled in early April to see the art that the jury selected and workshop how you might adapt your talents to represent a theme among the artwork. Sat April 26 11a to 3pm is our rehearsal at the Center for Sex Positive Culture.

NOTE: Not all performance must be inspired by the exhibition art. The Seattle Erotic Art Festival is also seeking an array of musicians and performers for ambient and mainstage performances. This is your chance to perform for an audience that is discerning and interested in works not generally offered to the public. Please submit through the website at for this purpose.

Birthrights Update

Tuesday, January 28th, 2014

BirthrightsTeaserSmallPatrons 232w" sizes="(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px" />I have shot 3 women for Birthrights thus far, with at least 4 left to go and a few open slots. It’s been a really damn cool project.

So far, every woman I’ve worked with has had a very different story, parenting experience, and motivation, than the others. One woman talked about feeling blissfull and energetic, another horrified and utterly exhausted. One described feeling distant and fragmented, another was a little surprised to still be alive.


It’s been super amazing to talk to these ladies and to in some small way immortalize their current location in the lifelong journey of motherhood.

My current sociological hypothesis : Every woman has been profoundly adversely effected by the propagation of an utterly unrealistic patriarchal beauty and purity standard in this country, and it boils the fuck to the surface when you grow a kid.

If you relate to that last statement, read this:

The above is one of the pictures I shot of my first model for Birthrights. It was just a snapshot at the end, of her having tucked her forearm under the small of her back.

I took the image because I liked the loose skin at her side, I thought it would look more dramatic than it does. Later the composition was appealing to me but I didn’t know why, so I put together this little teaser image. I just thought it looked neat and weird, like most of the pictures I take of hands. Now I’m like.. whoa. All birthy and shit. Wicked.

Branching into color

Monday, January 6th, 2014

Used my Holiday present from Scott today – a Visa gift card – for art supplies, as stipulated. My new loot includes a set of pens that I completely suck at using so far, they’re fat and weird and don’t blend like I would expect ‘blendable’ pens to, but after throwing away a couple of drawings I managed to spit out this one, which I like more and more as the day goes on.

Mostly, I did this to avoid practicing drawing more realistic arms, cause man are those a bitch. :P Also: Upgraded to 4×6″, which was pretty much required to use these pens.

Birthrights: An exploration of Transition

Saturday, December 28th, 2013

Photograph by Scott Steffy, 2013


I have an idea for a studio photo series which would be different than anything I’ve done before, involving taking images of (LOTS OF OTHER) people, who have given birth. I’m curious if my mother friends would be interested in being a part of realizing it.


Here are the particulars as I’ve brainstormed them thus far, with the concept and nuances still developing:

I’d like to create a series of images depicting the objectification of the area of the body most visually effected by your pregnancy, somewhat similar to this one.

As part of the image creation, I would like to interview you regarding the first thought that went through your mind when you awoke that first day, with a baby. By exploring this moment in your past we will agree upon a short phrase, in your words, to either paint on your body or caption in some other fashion (I have yet to decide), before shooting your image.

This project will include nudity; always tasteful, often implied. Depending on your situation, it may not be required that you be naked during the shoot, however it is my goal to not have any clothing showing in the pictures to express the vulnerability and rawness of the psychological component of the work. Similarly, it is unlikely that your face or identifying features will be present in the photographs.

Examples of my photographic work can be found at


Scope of the project

Birthrights is a personal pet for now, I will not be paying models, who will be required to sign a model release and provide a copy of their photo identification.

If the concept proves successful my intention is to show the work in exhibitions, and the work may be submitted to the Seattle Erotic Art Festival. I also consider the potential of creating a coffee table book or other forms of media if the scope of the project warrants it.


Available Shoot dates

I will be shooting for this project in my Pioneer Square studio in Seattle, WA. I currently have the following dates open:

Noon, Saturday February 15th
Noon, Saturday February 22nd



Q: How long will my photoshoot and interview take?
A: About an hour, give or take.

Q: I am [insert age here] and it’s been [insert years here] since I gave birth; Would you want me for your project?
A: Yes.

Q: Should I wear makeup to the shoot?
A: Not required, but if you’re more comfortable in it, by all means. I will not be using MUA for this project.

Q: I’ve had multiple children. Are you interested in my participation?
A: Yes, though we will focus on the experience of your giving birth to your first child.

Q: My body isn’t really all that obviously different from before now that I’ve given birth; Do you want me for your project?
A: Maybe. The idea here is to express transition in both visual and emotional/mental ways that are abstractly relatable and thought provoking, hence the objectification of your body and the distillation of your waking experience to a few choice words. If your perception of part of your body changed significantly due to having been pregnant/given birth, it may qualify, even if physically there isn’t much of a visual difference.


Submit to participate

If you’re interested in participating in this project please email with the following:


Saturday, November 30th, 2013

I swear I just saw myself for the first time

I told myself in the mirror

As I cried after connecting so incredibly profoundly with multiple people (And once again meeting another incredible man I can’t have in my life like I would prefer, god damn stupid growth opportunities)

“You are..

An amazing woman.

And you will ALWAYS be
An amazing woman.

No matter what
Anyone else thinks.

And when you die,
The world will be a better place

Because you
were in it.”

I am an artist.
And I am fucking amazing
And I am going to get what I want for myself.

Because I am worth it.
And there is no worthier cause than my happiness.

Thank you for showing me what is possible.
And thank you for believing in me.

“Finished” sketches

Tuesday, November 26th, 2013

These drawings represent a few milestones for me artistically.

Firstly, it is while creating these tiny sketches (2×3″) in my sketchbook yesterday that I was able to draw, for the first time in memory, a recognizable likeness on purpose. And then I did it again, multiple times!

Secondly, as to my emerging cartoon style, I am getting more comfortable with the crosshatch shading that I am drawn to, and experimenting with adding elements to create a sense of motion and accessory.

I am really digging these, so I completed the concepts by editing them digitally and creating a set of them.

All drawings are in ballpoint pen, drawn in my 2×3″ sketchbook.


Patrons, be on the lookout for scanned, printable versions of these next month!

Working on drawing expression today

Monday, November 25th, 2013

Still not me..

Thursday, November 21st, 2013

But getting closer.

Late night sketches

Tuesday, November 19th, 2013

Not doing so well on the whole sleeping thing lately. With how insane my schedule is for the next month, I best get better at that right quick.


Home for the holidays

Monday, November 18th, 2013

Behold – video evidence of the show I co-directed and performed in last Friday, the Versatile arts staff show “Home for the Holidays”.

This was a great production to be a part of, and also very stressful. We had one rehearsal before the show, which consisted almost entirely of addressing tech needs. Most of the dialogue and interactions, save for specific cue lines, were improvised to fall in with the story. Bev and I are very fortunate to be working with such talented and creative people – both on this show and in our daily lives at VA.

In the show, myself and Bev play Morgana and Val, distant cousins at a family Thanksgiving. Before this fantasy, they discovered a trunk of whimsical costumes once belonging to Morgana’s ‘mother’ Fanny, long presumed to be a lesbian, who sends them up to the attic to find her old photo album as part of her insisting upon proving that she was once a glamorous trapeze artist when she was younger. Stoned and playful, the girls put matching outfits on, and return to the family function. Eventually they are enthralled and convinced by Fanny’s tales, and once finding themselves in Val’s room alone after the rest of the family has passed out in a food coma, ruminate about the stories and what it must have been like.

This video is an example of the type of completed work I post to my Patreon account. Patrons who have pledged $3 or more per work (I finish about 4 a month currently) get access to a patron-only content stream with additional work and/or behind the scenes goodies – in this case, that means they get to see the video of the hilarious attic scene where my counterpart and I get stoned and change clothes.

Join us yourself here, read about how patreon works here.

Good days

Sunday, November 17th, 2013

Today, I said goodbye to my Taylor 114ce guitar, which has been lovingly callousing my fingers on behalf of my dear friend Jonathan since 2008. I traded her for a Mitchell acoustic/electric ukulele, as well as a Mitchell acoustic/electric thin line guitar, both of which feel amazing and sound great.

It was time, and I feel really good about it. I kept the Taylor case to remind me of the gift and all the loveliness that guitar brought into my life. It got me through some pretty hard times.

I’ve had a few good days lately. On Friday, a show I had been looking forward to for the last few months turned out really well, despite some rehearsal challenges. I’m currently encoding the video so I can distribute the evidence around.

The day after that, this happened, and I was finally able to write about this, too. Oh, and I found my minature sketchbook I thought I had lost.

I am looking even more forward to my first house concert for Craig and Mark at the end of the month, now. :)

Life is good.

Sunday, November 17th, 2013

A few years ago my dear friend Matt Lewis once mused during lunch about “What you could accomplish if someone just wrote you a check”. I fantasized for a moment, and quickly snickered. Like that would ever happen.

Fast forward to now, when I’ve just had one of the most interesting conversations of my life. It seems as though I have my first bona fide art patron. As in, a person who wishes to arrange a reasonably significant monthly recurring sponsorship toward my ability to make my work, without a required result.

When I told him about my Patreon page, he said he had seen it, but he just wanted to give me the money, without making me “dance like a monkey” for it. :D

I reiterated that patreon is the way I truly want to go right now. Joining the site is about more than the money, though that of course is the main draw – it’s also about encouraging me to keep producing and to gain self confidence in workshopping more of my ideas.

Patreon for me is also about the possibility of finally having found an online place where both commerce and the human relationship around art are balanced in a way that works for and excites me. I really feel that I am making a positive step by doing this.

We figured out the amount through Patreon that worked out to what he wanted to give me monthly assuming I reach my self-set goals of creating four completed works a month, and he signed up immediately.

In addition to this being my third and most generous patron since joining (I haven’t even finished one thing, yet, though admittedly I am behind right now), it marks the first time I have been supported in this manner for my potential in the arts, rather than a specific project or action regarding them.

Though settled on something a little bit different in the end, this is literally a life dream of mine coming true – Someone out there offering, wanting, willing, and able, to pay me money simply to be who I am. I am a bit stunned and inexplicably grateful. And also in shock.

Thank you, Bob Darlington, for believing in me. At this moment, it means the world, and a significant milestone in my life.

It’s true, resource in art is a game changer. I am pleased to say that Matt’s hypothetical future seems like maybe it doesn’t have to be hypothetical forever, today.

Thank you, from the bottom of my black little frankenheart, to everyone who has pledged to my Patreon campaign thus far; Todd, Eric and Bob. Let’s make some good fuckin’ art, eh?

Join us yourself here, read about how patreon works here.

SOLIDARITY: My Next Visual Art Project

Friday, November 8th, 2013

Sort of eerie, looking back at old art, and seeing in hindsight how descriptive it really was.

I made this pencil drawing in one night in 1996, before I used references to draw. As I recall, I had never tried to draw cracked surfaces before, and I was stunned that I was able to draw the heads and hands so well, in addition to being able to portray the slouching of the character on top of the head, which was, of course, me.

In fact, I would venture to say now that it was all me, and that this was a self portrait, though I didn’t view it as such at the time.

Generally, historically, I’ve had no deep direction or purpose when drawing. I haven’t really been the type to realize what my artistic compulsions are actually saying until long after I’ve said them, even when I do have a bit of an idea (like with Obsidian). Usually, it’s something like “Hmm, I think I’ll try to draw a head” and off it goes.

Though it would still be difficult to articulate (or maybe my brain isn’t working that way right now because I have a cold), I am able to see myself and who I was so clearly in this work that it’s a little frightening. After this last year or so of resetting perspectives, doing some deep psychological work regarding my expansive inner world, and gaining a few more artistic skills, I have a plan for my next big thing; I have decided my next visual project will be a series of self portraits in all the artistic mediums I know. Acrylic, watercolor, ink, ballpoint pen, pencil, charcoal, oil pastels, sculpture, sewing, photography, digital art, bloodwork, etc.

As an experiment in support options, I’ll be moving my art blog content to my Patreon account for the duration of this project and potentially beyond. I’m new to the site and still figuring things out, so I don’t have any videos or goals laid out just yet. You can help me by suggesting the types of things you’d like to see from me, and participating by pledging support, and sharing my Patreon page with your friends. Readysetgo!

First Self Portrait: ballpoint pen

Monday, November 4th, 2013

Meet Donia Jonquil Francis. Does it still count as a self portrait even if it doesn’t really look like you and reminds you of like 3 other people?

Spazzed out watercolor cat postcard

Sunday, October 27th, 2013

Sunday night Skullies

Sunday, October 27th, 2013

Found myself sitting around at home feeling like a crappy artist. So I drew stuff. Still crappy, but feel better now. Most of these are ~5-minute sketches. All are in ballpoint pen in my little 3×2″ sketch pad.

references Via google image search:

Owl and Cat were unreferenced.

Open Mic Achievement: Unlocked.

Friday, October 18th, 2013

I have finally been to and performed at an open mic. I finally found one that I liked the vibe of, at Scratch Deli, where I am also currently showing my artwork. Saw it last week, tried it this one.

I was definitely off my game, as well as being tired and poorly fed today. I struggled a lot with playing the keyboard in particular and my songs using other instruments are out of practice. That sucked some of the enjoyment out of it for me. I thought about bailing when rehearsing today, it felt so off.

But I played anyway, like the pro’s do, and it wasn’t half bad. Didn’t feel great, but wasn’t terrible and panic inducing like recital situations have been. Never warmed up really, It’s halfway through the third song that I start loosening up and we’re done after 3. I fucked up on every song, but within the scale, and covered it well/recovered smoothly.

The plan is to keep going to open mic’s on a regular basis so as to get to the point eventually where I don’t dislike it. Also met a few people who run the circuit who I hope to run into again.

Video exists. I will decide whether it’s postable after I see it. If so, it will occupy this space within the next few days.

Why We Bleed Art by Satyros Phil Brucato

Thursday, October 17th, 2013

My talented author friend wrote this article about the plight of true artistry. I have vivid memories of reading it a few years ago, and when it comes along my newsfeed, I don’t re-read it very often. It’s powerful stuff, and sometimes I don’t want to cry and feel all torn open and understood. But if that’s where you are today, if you’re an artist wondering why you bother or what drives you to continue slamming your face into the cement to live your life on your terms, and you’d like someone who has been there to blow your fucking doors off, this is the article for you.

Why We Bleed Art

In search of assistence

Tuesday, October 15th, 2013

I am looking for someone local to Seattle who is technologically savvy, understands DeviantART, Facebook, Tumblr, WordPress, Reverbnation, Hootsuite and the like, or posses the skills to easily learn these platforms.

Your job will be to take perhaps an hour or two a month to post/keep my profiles updated with new artwork and music, plug updates into HootSuite to remind the internet about events and shows, things like that. The problem you will be solving is the overflow online tasks – I will still maintain most of my own online presence.

The majority of the information and images that you will be responsible for aggregating will originate from and this blog, but there may be situations in which I will email you something specific to be dealt with.

EXAMPLE TASK: Update with images posted to since the last deviantart update.
EXAMPLE TASK: Update Reverbnation and Facebook when I play public music shows, and schedule updates via Hootsuite with reminders as the show date nears.

The right candidate needs to be efficient, security minded (no passwords on post-its or saving my passwords in your browser on your laptop) and detail oriented (you’ll need to remember to specify tags, titles, and properly organize submissions on the various websites I am a member of), as well as having critical thinking skills (Check to see if the gallery I am showing in already has a Facebook event to market, and if so don’t create a second one).

I prefer someone who is able to respond to small update requests quickly, but I would be willing to try a more structured arrangement for the right person.

Your payment will be one 90-minute session with artful touch ( a month.

This is a small but very important job. Please send your resume/credentials to to be considered.

The Real Monsters by Toby Allen

Monday, October 14th, 2013

Character designs based on mental illnesses.

The artwork is not at all intended to make light of these conditions but instead is intended to give these intangible mental illnesses some substance and make them appear more manageable as physical entities. – Toby Allen

An utterly amazing ongoing project which I’ve no doubt has and will help many, many people. This is what it’s all about!


Purchase the prints here:

Watercolor owl

Wednesday, October 9th, 2013