This year, more than most and less than some, has been a year of letting things go and allowing new things in. In that vein, it seems another identifying aspect of my life has come to a close.
Once first recognizing mixed feelings regarding how to credit my aerial acts in “Embodied”, and after months of knowing the time was drawing closer, I have decided to retire Zita the Aerialist, and allow the domain (which now redirects here) to expire.
There is an air of sadness and loss here, alongside a sense that this is the right thing to do. The persona and the theatrically engineered aspect of what Zita has represented for me, along with the dreams I once had of sharing her with the world, performing in a circus or ongoing show like Zinzanni, has run its course. I know those things are not in the cards for me. It’s time to leave that game, officially, to the people who actually play it.
Instead, I want to continue to work and focus through the sense of failure to the other side; The side which allows me to integrate aerial into my life with no pressures or expectations, and see what happens. Keeping Zita around, having the website around with no one calling for years, was like a thorn in my sole, a reminder of what I wanted her to be, irritating and distracting me.
But Zita, it turns out, was the mask that allowed for me to be, well, me.
I still teach aerial, more than I ever have in the past really, and consider aerial to be a big part of my life. I may also occasionally perform one-off aerial acts like the level 1 demonstration I did for the “Show and Tell” event at Versatile Arts, or a party now and then, though I don’t know what will come of my signature act. I suppose, honestly, with how few opportunities I’ve managed to create to perform it since the Little Red Studio dissolved, it doesn’t really matter very much.
Zita, you were great to me. At one time, I thought we might see the world together. I thought you might flesh out into your own little person, your own character. I thought maybe you’d be my ticket out of this country and to a place where we’d be appreciated more. Regardless of the thinness of your veil, you helped me find my strength when I thought I had none left. You allowed for me to express myself in ways that would have been hopelessly difficult to have achieved without your shield as I bled in the air for our audiences.
Thank you for being there for me.
I can do it myself, now.
Rest in Power, Zita.
You may have seen Zita at:
- Embodied, Live in Seattle Nov 2011 (Trapeze, Silks)
- How Art Saved My Life, Jan 2011 (Silks)
- There Must Be Something In The Air, June 2010 (Silks)
- Little red Studio, NYE 2009/2010 (Silks)
- The Pink Door, Aug – Nov 2009 (Trapeze, Sling)
- Circus of Dreams Benenfit, Sept 2009 (Rope)
- Rip Roarin’, Soul Soarin’ Summer Spectacular Benefit, July 2009 (Silks)
- An Intimate Spectacle, June 2009 (Silks)
- Daedalus Rising, May 2009 (Rope, Trapeze)
- The Ghost Game: Tales of 13 Witches, Halloween 2008 (Silks)
- The Obsidian Show , 2008-2009. (Director, Silks, Doubles trapeze with Beverly Rose)
- The Seattle Erotic Art Festival Gala, March 2008. (Director of aerials, Silks)
- Little Red Studio, the Fall season of 2007. (Silks)
- Aerlift II Benefit, May 2007 (Doubles Trapeze)
- Critical Massive, June 2006. (Rig technician)
- Little Red Studio, with Beverly Rose. May 2006.
- Circo Vivo Benefit, May 2006. (See the video!)
- Northwest Folklife, May 2006 (Trapeze demonstration and instruction)
- The Seattle Erotic Art Festival, with Beverly Rose. March 2006.
- Cirque Du Noc, Dec 2005 (See the video!)
- Westlake Center, Sept 2005
- Circo Vivo Benefit, a celebration of life! May, 2005
- Musica Vitae! Cabaret!, With Mike Ehmann. Winter 2004
- On the set of “Geek like me” Nov 2004, as Zita the Aerialist.
I have trained with the following teachers and institutions:
- Versatile Arts (Silks, Rope, Trapeze, Sling, Duo Trapeze and Duo Silks)
- School of Acrobatics and New Circus Arts (Everything!)
- Bobby Hedglin-taylor (Silks)
- The Toronto School of Circus Arts (Static trapeze, Silks, Corde Lisse)
- The Cabiri (Fire eating, Character Portrayal, Static Trapeze, Aerial Sling)
- Trapezius (Corde Lisse, Static Trapeze, Aerial Hoop, Silks)
- The UMO Ensemble (Aerial Hoop, Low Flying Trapeze)
- Donia Love, formally of Ignis Devoco (Fire Spinning)